My Serenity

2011-06-06T13:11:00.002+08:00

Looking at my last entry post, I realize that we are already 6 months through 2011. Time sure flies very fast heh? Haha... Well, a lot of things happened during that 6 months. Be it good or bad things, we all embraced it and survive through it :)

As for me, well, I said I had hoped that I will stay long with the previous company, which it didn't happen at all. I'm currently working with NParks now under Singapore Botanic Gardens Division. I'm enjoying myself here. Being under SBG division is really like a family. Well of course, there is politics everywhere in the Garden. But, we worked as a team and help each other out which I am thankful for being part of this big family.

I don't know how are my girlfriends doing right now. All of us are very busy with our own things. I hope that everyone is doing good and in good health. I miss all of you DEFINITELY! Miss those good old times when we all just hang around at Jurong West, drinking teh tarek or just talking, gossiping non-stop. Hahaha... Really, good old times. Really hope to do that again soon.

I feel happier now that I'm working with government. My mom doesn't nag at all and my dad has always been supporting me :) Brother and sister is doing good in school. Sometimes, I don't have time to spend with them. Well, I managed to make up to my brother by having lunch with him at macdonald and sis, to Botanic Gardens for an evening walk.

Guess, that's pretty much of an update that I have. Have a great week ahead everyone! :D

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah Ali

Hello 2011!

2011-01-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

Wow! 2011 is ALREADY here and a week in 2011 had just gone by. Fast huh? 2011, is going to get better for EVERYONE! I'm starting on a new career very soon. Monday will be the starting of my training. So hopefully, I'll last long in the company, *cross fingers*. I've been job hopping and it's not good at all. I need to secure myself a job and really make a mark in my career. 2011, is going to be the mark for my career. I know not many approve on what I'm going to do especially my mom. She wanted me to do a better job. But like I said, I just want to gain experience and try new things. I'll never know that it may suit me most.

I just want 2011, to be as cheerful as the past years. I wish that all the people I know, be it close or just a hi-bye friends, will be blessed with good health, wealth and prosper in whatever they do. I so am looking forward for 2011 and can't wait to see and play the scenes for another 357 days of 2011. Every moment that I have now, is definitely going to be awesome and shall not make a bad day ruin my entire days of 2011 =)

Till then
Afifah Ali

Bye 2010, Hello 2011!

2010-12-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

2 more days and we'll be saying goodbye to 2010. Wow, another year pass, another new year in. Time sure flies huh? I just want to end 2010 with awesome memories and after looking back on all the days, months, hours, minutes and seconds I spent for the last 354 days, it was just perfectly fantabulous! I will be lying if I say that there isn't any hiccups for the last 354 days. That's just nonsense! Every single day, I will face hiccups be it huge or small. It's a learning process. I realized I enjoyed most when I'm learning new things.

A lot of happenings I've been through in 2010. I learn a lot from there and I'm still learning as well. First, one of the most memorable moments in 2010 that I've been through with my loved ones will be my DARLINGS! (Suji, Denise, Yee Ling, Dama, Zarinna, Ida, Ivy) On December 3, was an awesome night I had with you girls except for Ida (wish you was there babe :'<) It was a FANTASTIC birthday celebration we had for the 3 celebrants [Yee Ling Darling, Suji Darling & Denise Darling]. That was the night I realised how much I missed each and everyone of you darlings. Since then, we've been meeting every week consistently. I just love it! :D

Second, another memorable moments will be with my instant daughter, my beloved sister Jaclyn, a soft spoken girl, Shirley, Alvin (Shirley's bf) and Ardi . They are also part of my memories and moments I treasure a lot. I didn't expect myself to be so close to someone whom I just got to know a few months and Ardi for 3 years and 9 months! They, like my darlings, thought me the meaning of fun, presence, support, encouragement, loyalty and most importantly the care for one another. It doesn't matter how often we meet, but what matters most is the heart.

Lastly, these are the people that brought me up to be who I am today. They are none other than my beloved family members. I love them as much as I love the above mentioned people. They thought me the meaning of family bonding, the strong relationship we have, that kept us going strong as a family. Even though we do have disagreements in the family, we are still as strong and as bonded as before.

All in all, the people that I met, is still meeting and will DEFINITELY be meeting for many countless years to come, I just want to say thank you for embarking in my life. Without you, life is plain. Lets end 2010 with full enthusiasm, excitement and full of GREAT MEMORIES!

Love, hug & kisses
Afifah
xoxo

2010-12-08T21:00:00.003+08:00

I thought I could stay long in this company, but never did I expect is going to be that "long". I really hope that the next job will be good and suit me better. I am a person who doesn't like to do same things over and over again. Answering calls may seem easy, TRY and you'll understand what I mean. I don't want to go to work feeling sad, uneasy, stress and emotional. That's not the environment I want to be in.

I'm just hoping for the better for my future. It doesn't help me if I keep on changing jobs. I know myself too well that once I'm comfortable with the job, I wouldn't want to move out unless under certain circumstances. I'm praying hard that I will land myself a good and decent job that can at least support myself, pay my insurance, the family car and my own expenses to take care of.

Hopefully the interview will go well on Monday :) Pray hard for me :))

Till then
Love, hug & kisses
Afifah Ali

2010-11-07T03:33:00.003+08:00

Finally! I passed ALL MY TESTS with ease... Nothing MUCH to think about now... I'm just waiting to answer live calls on Monday... *JITTERS* I'm hoping that I can stay with this company for good... Of course not as CSO, hopefully to move to other departments... *cross fingers*

Anyways, yesterday night met with Denise Darling, Dama Darling and Yee Ling Darling... It was FUN going out with them... It's been DONKEY MONTHS since I LAST saw them... Catch up with them, had fun talking and hanging out with them till 2a.m. Hopefully to meet the girls again!

Later will be meeting my daughter and wonderful sister Jaclyn! The last time I saw them was like 28th October, that was because I went to CSM Seoul Garden with my colleagues! Can't wait to meet them for dinner later... I'm sure there's A LOT OF THINGS to catch up right?! Alright, I'm getting sleepy already... To my darlings, PLEASE UPLOAD PHOTOS SOOOOON!!! Hehehe... Aights, NITEZ!

Till then
Afifah Ali

I FEEL SO USELESS!

2010-10-19T20:43:00.003+08:00

Today is not a good day for me. I felt SHITTY! I don't know how come I could be so STUPID to fail my retest! I've been given 2 chances, yet I didn't manage to pass the same topic! I'm so annoyed and irritated by the answers that I gave. I could easily earn 2 marks to be 80% but NO! I didn't check through my answers and that ended me with 2 marks less. ARGGGGGGHHHH!!!

I was close to crying in class today. I still cannot get over my STUPIDITY! YES! I'm given the last chance before the SVC (answering live calls with supervisors around). I NEED TO SCORE WELL FOR THIS TEST! I will and DEFINITELY make it! I don't want to let down on people who supported me throughout and I will make them proud.

As of now, I just need to be alone and grab myself together again. I'm not saying that I'm going to shut myself from people, but I just need some space for myself so I can relieve my stress and think through. It is ridiculous, of course.

I put up a false front after lunch so my colleagues won't feel weird. During lunch time I was super quiet and they told me that I am not myself. I'm suppose to be bubbly, they say and they are not used to my quietness. Haiz... I also nearly cried during lunch.

Oh well, it's done and nothing I can do to reverse back the time. I believe now that I've been given another chance, my trainer, Peng Khoon have faith in me that I will do well as a CSO. I must not let him and my love ones down. I will pass for SURE! I NEED TO STUDY EXTRA SMART now! To readers who is reading this blog entry now, pray for me okie? Thanks lots!

I'm super tired now. Just finish jogging and resting before I shower up. Right! Take care!!

Till then
Afifah Ali

2010-10-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

Today, I woke up quite late... I guess nearly 12.30 p.m.? Hahaha.. But it's all goooood... At about 4.30, we headed down to my grandparents' house and in the evening 7.30p.m. left for Yishun for some festive. I wasn't dressed up for the festive because I thought I will be going down to CSM to do my self-study but decided not to. I realized that I have not been spending time with my family for quite some time. Being a nice grand-daughter, daughter, niece, cousin, I decided to follow them. Hahaha... It felt good to go out with them :))

After the festive, we went to lower seletar reservoir. My uncle said is a new place. It's not bad at all. I like the atmosphere there, very calm, peaceful and beautiful. But it's quite plain though. Today, we took quite a number of photos. We just love to take photos :))) Hahaha... I'm already feeling very tired now... Gotta sleep!

P.S: I will need to do my revision tomorrow for Monday's retest. Wish me luck! :)

Till then
Afifah Ali

2010-10-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

Today is the 6th day of my CSO training. On the first day of work, I felt like I knew them for a week... Hahaha... Theory is forever BORING but we must know our product before we could go on the floor to answer live calls :) I can't wait to answer real calls, but at the same time, I am nervous... Heee

Anyways, today I had 2 written tests. (1) Savings A/C & (2) Current A/C, I did fairly good for both tests, there were a lot of careless mistakes. I feel like slapping myself on the face. I was quiet after lunch that my colleagues thought something happened to me. Hahaha... But I was alright soon after they created jokes for me to laugh... :) I just love them sooo much! That doesn't mean I FORGET my darlings and those close to me ok? You are still LOVE by me :DD

I'm still having the exam jitters... Tomorrow another paper, Fixed Deposits! Argh!!! I'm going to do well in this paper! I must pass! Well, I sweat out all my stress by jogging just now! Finally! I jogged after sooo long of not jogging! Hahahaha... IT FEEELS REAL GOOOOOD TO SWEAT! HEEEE =D Oritey! Gotta have shower and revise on my fixed deposit!

Till then
Afifah Ali

2010-09-16T21:51:00.002+08:00

I am sooo excited that I'm going KL next week! PLUS my last day at work after 3 days when I come back to Singapore! That means to say my last day is on the 30th September! Wooohooo! Can't wait! But of course, I will miss my Zingrill family that has been working with me be it days, months or years. They still have a great impact in my life :) Thank you ALL! G

Recently, they have been setting a very strict standard on food preparation. We've been getting A LOT of COMPLAINTS! Not only in our outlet but other outlets as well. I agree with the management that we should be STRICT with food wise because it is the PRIMARY reason why the customers come in to dine with us. On the contrary, I pity my staff because they will be stressed out. Well, nothing is EASY in life. You have to accomodate to others to ensure things fall into place.

Even if I were to leave this place, I will still feel for them. They have been like a family to me. Hopefully all is good for them when I leave this company :)

Till then
Afifah Ali

2010-08-29T02:57:00.003+08:00

Yay! As of today, it's the 19th day of Ramadhan. I'm sooo happy. Hari Raya is hear again. This year, my family is wearing black and silver. Wow! My brother and myself always wanted to wear black but my mom said it doesn't look bright on the first day. Now, our wish came true :)

Yesterday, my relatives, grandparents and grandaunt came down to my house to break-fast. I had a chance to gather with them again. This is a blessing during the month of Ramadhan I suppose. I could hardly see my relatives or grandparents when I worked during normal days. But now, during this month, I'm able to see them at least once a week, when we have gatherings to break-fast together. :)

This year, I'm also quite sad because my cousins and uncle had to celebrate without their mom/his wife again. It's already been close to 3 years since I last met her. Frankly speaking, I don't know what exactly she is doing right now. Maybe she is trying to hide herself from being seen in public. I'm just guessing though. Haiz, life is never fair, but that's the beauty of it. It makes us cherish and treasure a lot for the people that is around us.

Oklah, i'm counting down to Hari Raya already!!! Sooo excited!

Till then
Afifah

2010-08-15T04:50:00.003+08:00

Anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE :D

May all your wishes come true

May all the good things befall on you

May you be blessed with longevity, good health

& good fortune befall you.

2010-08-15T04:21:00.002+08:00

It's been sometime since I last saw my relatives. I was sooo happy that I had my off day on Saturday and that I could spend time with them. It strikes me how much my two cousin has grown up. Shiddiq and Syafiq was once a young boy whom I used to nag all the time when they make noise. Now, they are all big boys. So much so that their voice is breaking. Awww, how time flies.

Time sure flies, but how I wish hard times fly fast for my uncle. I can't bare to see him in pain. I can't bare to see my cousins suffer in silence. I know they are even though they didn't tell me how much pain they are feeling. I just know it. Yesterday, my mom, aunt, uncle, my other cousins, my sister, dad, brother and myself went to help my uncle to clean his house. It was really a terrible mess. We started with the store room, followed by my cousin's room, unpack all the unnecessary things and throw it into a box that my dad brought. Clean all the cabinets.

What saddened me most was to see my uncle not helping himself. I didn't mean physically helping himself with the housework but mentally. While I was clearing all the cabinets, there were a lot of unread letters which was addressed to him. I didn't want to be nosy to read all his private and confidential letters, so I asked him if the unopened envelopes to be thrown away. To my surprise, he said yes without even asking me what or from who or where the letter was from. It strikes me then that he rather not see it then facing the reality. It definitely is hard on him but if he keeps on running away, nothing is going to be solved. NOTHING!

I am also stupid enough to listen to him and threw all the important letters. I should have sneaked it and read it personally to see what exactly he needs help with. Currently, he just keep to himself. He is soo stubborn that everyone gave up on asking about him. I've never seen myself this stupid. I've always wanted to try and help him. But I just wasted my opportunity to help him. Argghh!!!

I just want the happy times for my uncle and my cousins that they once had. Never mind about my aunt. I don't know where on earth is she. If she ever stepped into Singapore, I hope justice will take on my uncle's side. Haiz...

Till then
Afifah

2010-07-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

It has been a very long time since I post my last entry. Things are very much better these few months. I finally found myself back. I'm just glad I did. Work has always been tiring, no exception at CSM. Everyone told me that I will gain weight once I go CSM. Truth is, I am losing weight alright? Hahahaha... It's a good thing, especially when I want to lose weight soo much! Hahaha..

I'm leaving the CSM team soon. When I looked back on the first day of my work at CSM, I just HATE it! I just HATE the fact that I was being transferred to CSM instead of staying at Marina Square or Bugis Junction. I remembered on my first day at CSM, Suji and Ardi was telling me that the moment you are about to leave the CSM team, you wouldn't want to because of the bond that you have with them and I said, it won't happen to me that I will miss them. True enough, I am eating my own words now that I am about to leave them. As much as I want to leave, I also don't want to because of camaraderie. I am emotionally attached because of the people definitely. It's obvious not the work that kept me going for 3 years, it's the people.

I just HATE to leave them, but it's for my own good. I will definitely be happy and sad to leave. Whatever happens, it happens for a reason. I definitely don't know what's it like for my future. But if I were to just take the lead, I may probably know how's life is going for me :) I am just GRATEFUL to the people who has entered my life and make life more meaningful :)

*To Eisah (my late friend)*

I wish you were still here with me to share the joy that I am feeling right now. I know you always believe in me and that you never fail to advise or listen to me. I miss you soo much that I wish I could spend the last moments with you watching movies. Now that you are no longer here with me, I pray that you are happy up there and always watching over people you care for. The moments that we had together with LP81 or with me, is always etched deep down in our/my heart(s). I/we always love you. I LOVE YOU EISAH!

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

2010-04-19T23:49:00.003+08:00

I know I can't keep running away from my problems. I just don't know when is the right time to face it. I just need time to think, time to think it through. Maybe it's true that I didn't have time to spare for you but you do know how much I love you. Whenever, I think about it, I am just angry at myself. I am frustrated at myself for not being able to explain and let you know how much it means to me.

I am just hoping that you understand and I need your support. It's not easy leading my life like this. Every single minute, hours, I am actually angry at myself and I somehow losing myself and is drifting away from my inner self. I just need to find all the shattered pieces that have long gone. Or else, it will get worse than I would have expected. I'm praying that one day, you will understand me better. I know you love me and want to see me be a better person. Just let me go through the process of hardship and when I fall, I will learn to get up.

I will try to find time to spend with you. All I seek for now is your support and understanding. I don't wish to be anymore rebellious. I'm trying to find the peace in myself again. I hope I will find it soon.

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

2010-03-10T19:23:00.002+08:00

Is it me or is the surroundings around me that made me feel weird lately? I hope it's just me... I don't know why I have this feeling of a sudden... It's not me to feel this way.... Haiz... I'm just wondering if I am up to it... A lot of my close friends said I'll definitely make it through this tough times... Yeah, hopefully... It really suffocates me now... What else now, I've been coughing for the past few days and it doesn't seem to subside at all... Just hope that I'll get better before I transfer to Marina Square...

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah :)

2010-02-21T20:49:00.002+08:00

Someone is sweeping my blog right now just because she has time NOW! Annoying KNOW! Hahahahaha.... Well, can I say this please:

FINALLY!!! SCHOOL IS OVER!!! WOOHOO!

For the very first time I went for holidays not thinking of anything... It feels damn good to go for holidays... Can I have more of HOLIDAYS please?!!! Hahaha... I'm just glad that I went away for a while...

Nowadays, I am just TOOO LAZY to upload photos in my blog... It's tooo troublesome to shift here and there... ANNOYING!!!

Anyways, yesterday I had a lot of fun besides being irritated by my family and my colleagues! Everything was awesome! Yesterday, my aunt decided to have a mini birthday celebration at my grandparent's house for her son's 4th birthday! We had SWENSEN Ice-Cream CAKE! I want Peppermint Ice-cream cake for my BIRTHDAY can?! Hahahaha... At 8, my uncle sent me down to Bedok Jetty Area F Pit 60 for my ex-colleagues birthday bbq! It's FREAKING FAR! OMG! Poor Zam, Wan and Ikha had to walk miles after miles from Macdonald!

I was sooo happy to see a few of our ex-colleagues... It's been very very long since we last meet up! It was just like a reunion... Though it was just for a while, it was great! We gonna have gathering sooon yeah people! I hope we can have full attendance.. Hee :D

Orite then! I'll see if I have time and the mood to upload photos! Till then peepz!

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

It's EFFING ANNOYING!

2010-01-24T01:23:00.002+08:00

I just HATE people who starts a conversation swearing others especially if that conversation is only meant for you (receiver) and the other party (sender). I don't know why must this sender ALWAYS start swearing whenever he talk to me! It's FREAKING ANNOYING! It really is! That's NOT all! Every sentence that he said has vulgarities in it! Can you imagine that?

I mean, if you are angry and start swearing I understand but this IDIOT thinks it's damn cool to swear at people. He thinks he is a gangster or some big shot guy? Oh PUR- LEASE! Every single message or MSN conversation is a MUST for him to start swearing! It's like %&&%^%#%^#!!!!

Hopefully he gets the message that I COULDN'T BE BOTHERED to entertain his NONSENSE! Every single message or convo, is always a single word reply from me! SERVE HIM RIGHT! I'm trying very HARD to ignore this SHALLOW kid! Like seriously, go and learn some basic manners boy!

Till then
With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

PHYSICALLY & MENTALLY DRAINED!

2010-01-21T20:58:00.002+08:00

If only my body could speak, I think she would say, "could you please take a BREAK?!" and if my brain could speak, I think she would say, "could you please relax and loosen up?!" OH GOD! I am PHYSICALLY & MENTALLY drained right now! I could feel that my body and brain is calling for HELP!

I JUST NEED A BREAK! I can't wait for my FYP assessment to be over in 2 days time! Then I AM FREEEEE!!!!!! I am missing Pandan Reservoir. I like the night breeze. It is perfect for me to release my tension and stress. I mean going alone or with company is a perfect place to unwind your mind. TRUST me! It is a place where you want to relax. Well, in this case, it is for me.

The only place that I could think of whenever I am stress is the Pandan Reservoir. I've been there alone at night and it helps a lot! Or if you like company, bring someone who is willing to listen to you. You wouldn't want to bring anyone who annoy the shit out of you! Hahahaha...

Well, I feel relaxed right now because for the first time this week, I could be home early. So I chose to be home early. I should pat myself on the shoulder. Anyhow, school is good! I just need to FORCE myself out from bed for these 2 weeks and it'll be OVER soooon!

Gotta go to bed sooon! Oh, a few more hours to mama's and insyirah's BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY advance BIRTHDAY to MAMA & INSYIRAH!

May you be blessed with good health & wealth. Stay happy and smiley always :D

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah :D

2010-01-11T10:05:00.003+08:00

Yesterday had a lot of fun with Jack, Yong Yee, Jack's friend and Kathy at Jack's house. We met to do Sophie's birthday cake. It was just a brownie that Jack bought from outlet and we decorate it with white choloate and M&M... It was cool!!! Kathy had a lot of fun playing and helping us... She was really like a small kid! Hahahaha...

We left the decoration half-way to Henry to do the touch up for the brownies. Heee :D Thanks a million Henry! We all head down for town... Jack, Yong Yee and Kathy went to Bugis and I went to Orchard to meet Ardi... ALWAYS MAKING ME WAIT! I had to wait for him one and half-hour! Pffft!!! Ardi if you are reading this, KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK AR! DO IT OFTEN OK?! Grrrr!!! Hahahaha...

So anyways, we went to search for Sophie's birthday gift at UniQlo.. I can't remember which shopping centre we went to... I think it was at Orchard Central... Hahahah... Bought for her a luminous orange jacket... It's very nice actually... I LIKE!

Yesterday wasn't really a good day for me... I called my dad at around 10.25 p.m. and I got a very good scolding from him... So I told Ardi to just head home as I have got no mood and my face was damn black! I think he was shocked to see my face like that! I was very quiet and didn't talk to him while waiting for the bus. I know I look scary Ardi, sorry about that! Now you have seen the real me... I just HATE to show people that side of me... But oh well, I just can't help it!

Today will be a better day for me :D Wish me luck for my UT later *cross fingers*

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

2010-01-04T10:42:00.002+08:00

I am really lost for words... Even though we met for just like 2h, it was damn happening! Hahaha... I just LOVE my darlings to bits! Yesterday, was a last minute planning and it was just a random planning... Met Suji and Ida at Science Centre... Supposedly to meet at 9.30 p.m. but Ida being her NORMAL self came like almost 10.30 p.m?? Hahahaha... We chatted through the night...

Before the mac close, we went to the "playground" area because Suji have not been there for don't know how many years already... She was like trying every single thing there... Macam budak-budak! Hahaha... Annnnnnnnndddddddddddd.... We came across this place just outside the macdonald, it looks like chess or checkers game and we are suppose to move the cones by ourselves... It looks a bit like you know Harry Potter's check's mate game except that it uses cones... Hahahaha... Oh and I had to be one of Ida's cones because she was short of one... So it's Suji against Ida... Hahahaha...

It was damn FUN!!! Ida had to drag her human cone and this human cone told her to make sure that she gets to the end and not be kicked out from the game... Hahahaha... Suji got annoyed by Ida's human cone and keep asking her to shut up, "Eh shut up lah cone!" Hahaha... I keep on telling Ida which one should move or should not move... In the end Suji couldn't take it, she just closed my mouth with her palm and pushed me against the floor... Hahahahahaha... DAMN HAPPENING! We had a lot of fun playing, laughing and chatting! I LOVE YOU BABES!!!

I just can't wait for more outings together! We will definitely go out together yeah! With the rest of course... I'm MISSING them as I type through this entry... MISSING YOU GIRLS NOW!!! Oritey, gotta go!

Till then
With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2010!

2010-01-03T20:35:00.002+08:00

Hee... I know I am like 3 days late but oh well, it's still new year! So,

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

May this year will be a fruitful and wonderful journey for everyone of us!

I'm missing my darlings soooo much now! Tell me darling, when was the last time that we meet up? Like donkey months now! We will go out one day okie??? Hopefully all 8 of us will be there! :D

Oh and I've got A PLANNER 2010! Hahahah... Sorry it's damn random I know! Coz I NEED IT BADLY! I need it EVERY YEAR! Hahaha... Okie dokie! I'm meeting 2 of my darlings now... Can't wait to see them! Chowz baby!

Till then
With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

2010!

2009-12-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

3 more days to 2010! 2009 is ending soon. WoW! Time sure flies. I'm graduating soon and will be in the real working industry. 2009 has been a great journey for me. I realized the importance of the people around me. I started to treasure them and try every possible ways to spend time with them. At least a day spent at home having dinner with my family, every sunday visit my grandparents and a day in don't-know-how-many-months spent with my lovely darlings is good enough.

Life is full of ups and downs. It doesn't matter how I go through it but with whom I go through it. I have lovely people around me that always make me stand on my own feet. They are like a backbone in my life. I may not be who I am right now if not for these people who have impacted my life with their great presence. You know who you are :D

2010! It will definitely be another great journey for me and the people around me. We will go through it together no matter what happen. There's nothing to lose or afraid when I know I have you beside me. I'm looking forward to having a fruitful and wonderful year ahead with you!

HAPPY 2010! MAY YOU HAVE A FRUITFUL & WONDERFUL YEAR AHEAD!!!

Till then
With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah :D

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2009-12-25T01:33:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

WoW! I didn't know that celebrating christmas is sooo much FUN! I had a lot of fun celebrating christmas with my colleagues. These people made christmas AWESOME:

1) Sir Gopal

2) Ma'am Michelle

3) Sir Jack

4) Eunice

5) Kathy

6) Sarah

7) Uncle Rashid

8) Ken

9) Tam

10) Tony

11) Joanne

12 Me!

We had christmas exchange gifts, teriyaki turkey (yummylicious) & cookies & cream ice-cream log cake given by the company! It was SUPERB! Can we have it again? Hee... This was my first time celebrating christmas with my colleagues actually. Never done this before. We had A LOT of FUN teasing Sir Gopal with Sarah, chatting, laughing, talking nonsense on our way back in train. It's definitely a sweet memory. :D

With love, hug & kisses

Afifah

2009-12-20T22:21:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking a lot lately. I just hate to think but I can't STOP myself from THINKING! Grrr!!! Sometimes I feel that I think too much. Too much to the extend of stressing myself out! Haiz, I'm actually quite sick of work. Colleagues after colleagues are leaving. Somehow, I am glad that Jack is still there. At least I know he will make me HAPPY :)

Graduation is around the corner. 3 more months to graduation? and I've yet to decide what I want to do. My mom told me over dinner to continue study while I still can. BUT! I am quite sick of studying at this moment. I need a BREAK! Maybe I'll pursue my degree after 1 or 2 years later. It is not easy to study and work part-time at the same time. I JUST HATE IT! I have to ensure that I earn certain amount of salary every month and if I were to continue study I doubt I can focus on my modules. It's DEGREE we are talking about not DIPLOMA! I know everyone in my family is looking forward to see me taking a degree especially grandma. Haiz... I really don't know what I want to do after graduation. I think I shall work for a couple of years and then start studying again. Come what may.

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

2009-12-18T22:45:00.002+08:00

Today is DEFINITELY A GOOD DAY for me. Firstly, the long rest-in-peace superman IS FINALLY BACK! Hahaha... I was just sooo happy at work! Secondly, my two girls made my day. Nur Shahidah and Nur Atiqah. My two students PASSED THEIR 'N' LEVELS! YAY!!! I'm so over the moon right now that they are able to go to the next level. 'O' LEVEL is WAITING for you babes! Strive hard and you'll achieve better results than your 'Ns'. I know you can do it!

I'll just have to start preparing myself now that they are going to take their Os next year. I need to study all of the numerics, the angles, the vectors, the probabilities, blah, blah, blah! Oh man! It's ORITE, I am ready for as long as they still have the means to carry on studying :)

Lastly, Ardi sorry about just now. I didn't mean to say nasty words to you and I didn't know I was speaking loudly on the phone. I am really sorry friend :(
But you know me, swearing is like a daily habit for me. So I just can't help it. However, I will TRY to control myself from saying nasty words to you yeah ;)

Okie dokie! It's a good day that I need to go to bed early. Tomorrow working full! Chowz people!

With hugs, love & kisses
Afifah

2009-12-17T20:02:00.003+08:00

I was supposed to start on my FYP report again today but then I AM TOOO LAZY TO START! I just have got no mood to do anything today! SIAN! Phone's down, no mood, lazy to the max! Oh god please me give the strength to pull these through! I really needed it badly! Thanks to Rynn and Henny for giving me the encouraging words through Facebook! Thanks babes!

"Sight seeing, star gazing" yesterday at Pandan Reservoir helps me a lot. At least I have some peace for a while! I think I needed it every week. Should I or should I not jog today? Should I just jog tomorrow? Wah! My serious LAZINESS is BACK again! I need to get out from this feeling SOON! Or else, nothing gets done!

I think I shall just jog tomorrow since I end work at 5! And I am going to see that ASS again tomorrow! PFFT! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for me *cross fingers*! ARGH!
SIAN! SIAN! SIAN!

2009-12-15T20:59:00.003+08:00

I just can't stop swearing today! I've been swearing from the time I start work until now!

ARGH!!!!! Can someone give me a CHILL PILL please?! I NEED IT BADLY!!! I was looking

forward to work with you because I know you were someone who I can rely on! BUT! It turned

out to be otherwise! What the F**K! Seriously, the 'superman' that I know once already

REST IN PEACE! I'm praying damn hard now that we don't get you back in our outlet

because we DO NOT NEED any LAZY ASS lying around in the outlet! LIKE SERIOUSLY!

I just can't wait you to get your FAT ASS out from the outlet!!!! You are just.. - PFFT!

Lost then Found

2009-12-09T15:34:00.006+08:00

Staring at tears on the pages

Of letters that I never could've write

Now I know love isn't painless

But it's worth the risk

It's worth the fight

Playing it over and over

I wish that I could turn back time, baby

We were wrong, but we could be right

Why do we say things we can't take back

Why do we miss what we never had

Both of us fell to the ground

The love was so lost, it couldn't be found

Why do you tend to forget whose vain

I'm tired of crying out at the sound of your name

Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy

Don't you want to be lost then found

Lost then found, lost then found

Love ain't the enemy

We could be lost then found

Empty glasses on tables, echoes fill these rooms

The memories go where we go

There like the suitcases that you never lose

If the good lords eyes upon me

I swear to make things right

Whatever we lost, I know we can find

Why do we say things we can't take back

Why do we miss what we never had

Both of us fell to the ground

The love was so lost, it couldn't be found

Why do you tend to forget whose vain

I'm tired of crying out at the sound of your name

Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy

Don't you want to be lost then found

No words can come without

Can't stop the rain, I wish you could take it back

But it's too late

Why do we say things we can't take back

Why do we miss what we never had

Both of us fell to the ground

The love was so lost, it couldn't be found

Why do you tend to forget whose vain

I'm tired of crying out at the sound of your name

Why don't we turn this around, love ain't the enemy

Don't you want to be lost then found

Lost then found, lost the found

Love ain't the enemy

We could be lost then found

No words can come without

Can't stop the rain (lost then found)

I wish you could take it back (lost then found)

But it's too late, it's too late

We could be lost then found

Wednesday night joggingg!

2009-12-09T13:25:00.002+08:00

Last Wednesday went jogging with Ardi at West Coast Park. As always, waited for him nearly

30 minutes! ALWAYS make people WAIT! Hahaha... We jogged at 10 p.m. I've never jogged so

late at night before. SERIOUSLY! So we jogged don't know how many kilometres only he knows!

I think we nearly jogged towards pasir panjang! NEARLY! Jogging with him is FUN of course.

FREE radio! He keeps on singing non-stop. Till now, I'm just wondering how you can jog and

sing at the same time. INCREDIBLE eh! Hahaha... So we going to jog once every 2 weeks. Steady

ar? Don't back out OK?! ;D

With love, hugs & kisses

Afifah

Night with Suji Darling

2009-12-09T13:09:00.003+08:00

Last night went to meet Suji darling at Lakeside for dinner. She really NEEDED a BREAK!

Like a SERIOUS BREAK! Hahaha... It's ok darling erm a few more months to go! Jiayou!

So we chatted through the night. I missed those moments we had together. Tell me when

was the last time we did all these? It's been donkey years for both of us... Hahaha...

I can't wait for 2010 to come, because I know you'll be able to spend time with us again!

I'm counting down just can't WAIT! Can't wait to go out with you and chill at you-know-where!

Okie dokie! Have fun at work darling. 1h plus to your work. Take care! Love you many many!

With love, hugs & kisses

Afifah

2009-12-01T23:17:00.008+08:00

Let me just entertain you with a few pictures taken on Sunday with a bunch of CRAZY and INCREDIBLE people!

Happy Birthday Suji Darling!

2009-12-01T13:06:00.005+08:00

I want to wish my darlings, Suji & Yee Ling Darling, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!

Yee Ling Darling :D

Suji Darling :D

Let me sing birthday song to you, *ehem,ehem* (clearing my throat)

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to Suji & Yee Ling!

Happy Birthday to you TWO!!!

May you be blessed with good health & wealth babes! I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH! We'll

meet up SOOOON!!! THURSDAY is coming! See you DARLINGs!

ENJOYING EVERY MOMENT THAT I HAVE!

2009-11-30T01:33:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a fun, enjoyable and happening outing with my colleagues! We went to

BREEKS Marina Square to have our dinner. It was all a last minute plan! I think

last minute plan works wonders... Hahaha... There were not many customers dining in but

with our presence at the outlet, it seems that the house is RUNNING FULL all thanks to our

dearest Eunice's LOUD HAILER VOICE! Hahahaha... So after we had our stomach filled, we

waited for Edi to finish "understanding" how the new system works for the ordering... While

waiting, we were shocked to see Wan and Ikkha outside Seoul Garden Marina... It was a

coincidence. I think we have the telepathy within the Bugis staffs. Hahaha... Once Edi was

done with his "understanding", we headed down to ION Orchard because Edi wanted to get

E71 for his brother. AWWW... SO SWEET! If only I have a brother like that! Hahahaha... And

Eunice and Kathy wanted to find a birthday gift for a friend. So shopped a while and after that

we played pool!

We went down to find Ardi at Concorde Hotel beside Orchard Plaza and there were 11 of us

playing! At first I just wanted to be the camera woman because I DON'T KNOW HOW TO

PLAY POOL! Pool and me don't get along well... However, I was inspired by Muhd because he

don't play pool and he's quite good at it for a beginner and he was also the one who asked me to

try... So yeah I did. First time, suck big time, second time, as sucky as first, and third time, I'm

getting the hang of it... It's actually quite FUN to play pool... We played for almost 2h and a few

of them chill out at Edi's place because they wanted to send him off to the airport tomorrow

morning to Bali... Have a safe journey to Bali Edi! Will miss you for these 2 weeks and have fun!

Ardi and me took the bus home and we wanted to take 143 but to no avail, we just missed the

last bus right in front of our eyes! PFFT! We took 14 back to Clementi lucky thing that it's still

available... Hee :D Oh! Have I told you that Ardi have too much air in his stomach that he kept

on burping NON-STOP while I was massaging his stiff neck? I don't know where and when

you collected that much of air and you burped through out the journey even while waiting for

105 to arrive! THAT was just half-way done! I wonder how long will it take for you to STOP

burping if I were to massage you fully LoL! Hahahaha... Hope your neck is better after the

massage! Really! I had A LOT OF FUN with them tonight! I'm enjoying every moment I had

with them no matter what we did!

Love, hugs & kisses
Afifah

2009-11-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

What's happening right now? Why all these are happening? I never thought that "E.S"

would do such a thing! Why?! Why do you say that you have no one here? YOU have friends

around you! They CARED A LOT ABOUT YOU! DON'T YOU GET IT???!!!

What's the point of threatening people and telling them you would some STUPID thing?!

I am sure you are not as dumb! You know that LOVE cannot be forced! And WHAT THE FUCK

are you doing in the middle of the night NOT SLEEPING?! It's not one or two days I'm

talking about! It's ALMOST EVERYDAY!!!! "E.S"! WHAT'S GOT INTO YOUR MIND??

ARE MENTALLY DISTURBED?!

It hurts a lot to see a good friend doing all these! Sitting at the rooftop! WHY???!!! People

around you CARED SOOO MUCH about you! Don't you care about them? Why are you so

SELFISH?!

2009-11-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

Things are getting bad these days... I thought it will be ok soon.. But now it seems very

tense... Last Friday, when I asked you if you were still angry with 'K' in the morning,

you replied me "it's my problem, not your problem!" I was taken aback by your words...

Nevertheless, I just smile after what you said! I was actually hurt by your words!

Why do you have so much of angst in you? It's over, for goodness sake! Try to LET GO,

FORGET IT! I am really very sad at how you behaved... I never once thought that a big

brother that I looked up to change within a few days.. Haiz, one after another is leaving

and you are doing this!

I just need strength and courage to keep this alive... Please give me the strength to stand

on my feet for as long as I can...

World Kindness Day

2009-11-14T14:38:00.005+08:00

Have I told you that I HATED tour groups sooo much?! Especially the bloody CHINA people...

It's like they have never seen food for ages! YUCKZ! Yesterday was the most irritating day I

had... There were a lot of tour groups and it was full house until 3ish... Of course not only the

tour groups but there were students as well. They came in a huge group and we had to turn over

the table for quite a number of times... Haiz... The only persons on floor were Ken, me and Hans.

Lucky thing Hans came at 1 or else, I'll be very annoyed! At around 4ish, the restaurant was

very peaceful. I LIKE! Helped my dear Rustam with cooking for a while since there wasn't

anything much to do on floor.

So, while I was cooking omelette, I heard Jack calling my name. He surprised me with a

sunflower! SO SWEET of him! He said it's a world kindness day and he got the flower from

Orchard and it says "Give this to someone you appreciate." Sooo SWEET!!! He made my day :D

After work, I head down to Vivo to meet Ardi. We wanted to go to Sentosa to chill out but it was

raining so I waited for him to end work first. I waited for him for an hour and fall asleep at the

bench. We head down for dinner first coz this insurance guy haven't had his dinner yet. Guess

what? We went to Sentosa close to 8 p.m. We had a night picnic and he is really a local tourist.

Never been to Palawan beach's bridge LoL! Call me a tourist, I wonder who has the tourist look

yesterday lol! I've never seen people wearing formal wear to Sentosa also...Hahaha... Anyways, I

had a lot of fun laughing at you yesterday. Thank you buddy... Will camp at Sentosa

when I accomplish the challenge that you post to me yeah ;D

With love, hugs & kisses
Afifah :D

2009-10-13T22:10:00.007+08:00

It's been quite sometime since I last post entries to my blog. Well, there isn't

anything muchfor me to update. Past few months have been an enjoyable and

fun-filled leisure for me. Atleast I get to see my darlings every month. We chill

out, watch movies, have fun together though not all 8 of us met up, but those

few that I met made everything wonderful!

I can't wait for DEEPAVALI!!!! WONDERFUL FOOD is coming my way! I CAN

SMELL IT! Hahahaha... Till then people...

With hugs, love & kisses

Afifah

2009-09-08T11:45:00.004+08:00

There is nothing wrong about BIG BIG BIG dreams. I

never dare to dream until this girl came. She has a very big

dream. I am very inspired by her. It doesn't matter where you

are from, it doesn't matter what your status is. What matters

most is you dare to dream and have a dream book if you want

to have one... So people go on and dream big! Don't stop and

believe in yourselves that dreams will definitely come true! I

urge you to watch this video.. It is very inspiring... ENJOY!

P.S: Standby tissues by your side please ;)

http://piperoo.multiply.com/video/item/23/Charisse_Pempengco_duet_with_Celin

2009-08-10T22:18:00.002+08:00

It was a wonderful night spending with Darlings last Friday, though it will be better if Yee Ling were to be there as well... Oh well... Maybe the next time we'll have all 8 together =D... What matters most is Ida had a memorable birthday at Botanical Garden... It was a romantic birthday surprise right Ida? ;) Hahahaha... After Botanical Garden, we went to ton at Bugis... Left with only Suji Darling, Ida Darling and Me! We stayed until about 2ish, 3... Then left for Esplanade... It was definitely a wonderful night/morning spent together...

Reached home at about 7... Went to bed at 7.30... And suddenly I received a call from my classmate, Zu at 12ish but I didn't answer her call because I was sooo bloody tired! Received a message from her at about 1ish telling me news which shocked me!!! I couldn't believe what I read on the text message that Zu sent and I called her to confirm... I was hoping that it was just a spam message... BUT IT WAS ALL DAMN TRUE! "Sheng Yao and Clara met with an accident and they passed away this morning"... I just couldn't believe what I heard and what I read! Tell me that it's all a LIE!

It's too fast to be true... Too fast... I went for Clara's wake yesterday and it saddens me to say goodbye to her... Though we never talked much but I am thankful that I got to know you for 1 semester and we were in the same team for 14 weeks in Developing Enterprise Module... Thanks for your friendship Clara... You'll never be forgotten....

Sheng Yao... I am really very sad that you left us... It's a great loss for me and our other friends... It saddens me that you left us for good... Everytime when I saw your name being mentioned in the news, i start crying... The memories we had together in E66F will never be forgotten... I remembered you saying that I am too fierce, the things we talked about in class, teasing each other... Now that we are no longer in the same class, we always happened to be in the same building and level for lessons... Saying 'HI' whenever we bumped to each other and teasing one another for even less than 5 minutes make my day... But all that will never ever happen again... I will miss you definitely, you and Clara will remain in our hearts...

Sheng Yao and Clara may you rest in peace and be happy together in your new world... We all love you both and will miss you... Take good care of yourselves up there... It's definitely a goodbye now... :'( goodbye my dear friends...

2009-07-02T14:01:00.003+08:00

SOMEONE has been bugging me to post entry in my blog... Just because she happened to find time to update her blog, she tagged people's tagboard to update I guess... HAHAHAHAHAHA....

So was telling this SOMEONE how much I missed those times when I spent time with my darlings where all 8 of us were together... I happened to come across the DEEPAVALI photos in one of the folders in my laptop that we took together... Those happy moments we had, the laughter, the teasing, the touching of where it shouldn't be!, the tears we shared, the joy and the happiness we had...

Even until now, the presence of the 7 DARLINGS of mine is being felt no matter where I go... It really is a blessing to have known them cause they are the ones that make me stronger everyday...

They are the ones too that create the joy, happiness and tears to my eyes...
Darlings, I want to tell you that each and everyone of you has made a great impact in my life... Though we are of different personalities but we clique very well... We went through rides of roller coaster... Bitching here and there but all I know is that we LOVE each other very much...

To my darlings,
I LOVE YOU...

With love, hugs & kisses

2009-05-10T14:45:00.002+08:00

2 months! It has been 2 months since we last met from Sentosa... I had FUN with all my darlings last Friday.. except for 2 of them... Dama and Denise Darling... Anyways... My apology for ALWAYS not being able to meet you girls up for dinner or just hanging out... Last Friday was fun... Finally all the FUCKERS are out right Zarinna?! Hahahahaha.. Anyways.. I lazy to post pictures in blog.. It's going to be uploaded in Facebook... :D Love you all.. See you all soon...

2009-04-01T12:09:00.005+08:00

I have been feeling rather down lately... I'm not used to people pushing me to do things which I hate to do... People keep telling "shift Fifah, shift..." Move on and you'll be able to get it... I'm soo used to be in my comfort zone that I realize, I am playing safe again in this game called life... Then I remembered something which keeps me going in life and play hard in life...

I have never wanted to move away from my comfort zone because I am scared, afraid and frighten by the thought of risking... RISK-ing is such a big word for me... What's risk? At the back of my mind I have 1001 considerations going on... I'm mental masturbating in mind... Keep thinking, analyzing and procrastinating... Sometimes I wonder, why can't I just go along with the flow and stop thinking for a moment and relax... I was feeling lethargic, exhausted, drained-out and no life... But I am in the state of denial saying that "no, I'm not feeling lethargic, exhausted and drained out, thinking is good and analyzing things is good so everything will go as we plan."

Many a time I want things to be planned so everything will be prim and proper. No hiccups in life... Sounds very promising in life to me... However, the more I keep denying that I am not drained out, that I am not feeling lethargic, the more it got worse of me... I was being very pretentious... What's the point of living in life pretending when I know that I am not going anywhere... So I decided to stop everything that has been weighing on my shoulder and took 5 days off...

The first day of my life I was still very much mental masturbating... That's me... Still being very reserved to myself and not opening up to people... Keep telling myself that I will do it tomorrow and when tomorrow comes nothing is being done as well... I procrastinate a lot in my life, keep on waiting and waiting and waiting... I told myself that if I keep on procrastinating, I'll do nothing much in my life... NOTHING!

The second day of my life I was letting loose a bit... Not so much of mental masturbating and decided to leave 1/4 of my brain at home so I don't have to think/analyze things too much... In life, I tend to judge people, criticize people by the way they dress or the way they behave be it at home or in public or even things which makes me jealous... I'll be denying myself if I said that I have not criticized my friends or family... I'm no angelic myself... STOP PRETENDING I told myself that...

In life, I tend to break agreements and promises... When I told someone that I will call back, I never did, when I say I'll be there by a certain time, I never did... This shows up a lot in my life on how I keep my promises... Do I really want to keep my promises it is all up to me... It's my choice but do I want to cheat or make people wait for me? I rather not... So where am I standing in life now? A cheater, someone who is not committed to call back/be on time for a date or outing? It never came across in my mind that by doing that I am sending a message saying that he/she who is waiting for me is not important at all ... Why? Because I only think about myself... I have never bothered to think about others... Let them wait - so what? That's how I was in my life... A pretentious angelic with god-damn 'high' self-centered... It hit me hard, really hard that I fall to tears... All the people who is around me is being affected... I never realize.. How self centered I was...

The third day of my life came... Decided to leave 3/4 of my brain at home... Too much of thinking and analyzing is boring now... I just went with the flow of the game called life... I have always wanted to win big in life... WINNING is such a successful word and that people will look up to me as someone who is capable of doing things and beat others down flat... YAY! right? But NO! Again I was being self-centered... All I want is to win and others fail... Why have that such thought Fifah? I asked myself... Why? Where in life have I ever want people to win except me? I thought, that's ridiculous... Why win for others when I myself can win for myself? See! being self-centered again... What the fuck Fifah? Have you ever thought of winning together with others? That I can share the joy, happiness and enthusiasm together with people around me? STOP and feel... How do I want people around me to feel that I myself will want them to feel? I want people to feel proud, high self-esteem, confidence and walk with their heads high up... Again, it never came to me that if other people win in life, I win too... Because of my commitment to want them to feel proud, high self-esteem and confidence shows through my actions not words... It takes a lot of courage and risk to make people win because not all will want to move out from their comfort zone... Whatever it is, it's a matter on possibilities around others and me...

The fourth day of my life came.... Brain - totally left at home... I asked myself how's that possible not bringing my brain along? Think of the possibilities - I told myself...
I always get distracted when things that I really want to do doesn't turn out to be what it is... In return, I got affected the whole day... Feeling moody, angry and people around me will feel hurt by my actions and words that came out from my mouth...

Everytime when I am faced with a difficult situation... I just refuse to shift... I will just stick to the same situation feeling bad and do nothing about it... Why stay in the same situation when I can move and make a difference to other things? I have never thought I could make a difference in other things because I only see myself making no difference... In life, I have choices... It all depends on me... If I choose to do nothing, it is also a choice... Again, in life I let my emotions be affected by the situation that I have faced earlier be it good or bad and when I move to someone else, my mood will affect the other people be it good or bad... It hit me hard that everything I do affect people one way or another... I may not see it but people will feel it... Choice is a great tool in life... Everything I do is the choice I choose to take...

The fifth day of my life came... Everything that I needed to know has been revealed through this 4 days of my life... I was glad that I stop and look at my life for a moment and decided to take time off my busy schedule... Not so long but 5 days is good enough for me to reflect on my life... What I have been questioning myself have been answered... Last but not least on the fifth day of my life, I realize that I have always said things like "see I told you", "I was right wasn't I", "Whatever!" or "Wah Lau Eh!"... Because I am ALWAYS right!! I have never wanted to let others point of view to be right than mine... A lot of time in my life I do that...

I'm glad that I have these 5 days spent to stop and look at my own life... Really glad I had... Because I know the future is ahead of me and I want to make the difference in others and myself... Others win, I win...

2009-03-03T15:11:00.002+08:00

I had a bad accident yesterday. At home i mean, not outside... I was soo careless in the bathroom

that I tripped and fall while bathing... Supposed to go and watch movie with Suji darling but

unfortunately because of the accident, I can't. My left shoulder hit the ground and I felt super

dizzy and nausea after the huge impact on my shoulder... It was awfully painful... I couldn't

even move my left shoulder because it hurts a lot... I can only move from my elbow down... I

can't even stand for too long if not I'll get dizzy and my vision were not clear and I felt nausea as

well... What a day to start with in the beginning of the week... Haiz... Now I can't work for like a

week... Damn it... Today it's getting better after crying a lot while my dad massage my injured

shoulder... At least I could move my left shoulder but it still hurts... Hopefully by tomorrow the

pain will subside a bit and I recover fully on Friday so that I can go to Sentosa with my darlings

and go for my LP81... Right time to go...

Cheers
Afifah

2009-02-24T14:06:00.004+08:00

Sunday was the biggest day that happened in my life... It was my graduation from a course that

I attended for 5 days... It really gives an impact on me... A GREAT IMPACT...

To my darling, my aunt(s), my basic course mate who attended SA82 graduation... Thanx a lot

for your presence in my life... To the people I know be it 'hi-bye' friends, close friends,

darlings, fruities, families, teachers and colleagues, your presence in my life made me feel

important... Really... I LOVE YOU ALL to bits...

2009-02-16T22:21:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone...

Ok a little too late to wish but if you realize I ALWAYS

tend to wish after an occasion has happened...

So yah...

Anyway, what you guys did for valentine?

Me? I went out with Suji Darling...

We were smart enough to go to Changi Airport where it was less crowded...

We went there to eat POPEYE (T3)... YUMMYLICIOUS!!!

After that we did this colouring thingy where all you need to do

is just colour it on because it says 'colour from scratch.'

We gave each other the colouring that we made as a Valentine Gift... Hehehe

After POPEYE, we went to coffee bean to chill out.

This what happens during the chilling out -

i) whenever we (I) see a couple - girls/ladies have flowers in their hands we go 'awww'

ii) when we (I) see a bouquet of flowers, we go double the 'awww' - 'awwwwww'

So yeah it was tiring saying 'awwws' everywhere we go... Hahahaha...

Then at about 8 ish we left Changi airport for Bugis...

From Bugis we walked and walked till our legs brought us opposite

the Fullerton Hotel where we chill and cam whored...

This minah who was supposed to celebrate with her BF called us

and disturb our 'night'...

Hahahaha... Kidding ya darling...

We went back home at about 10 ish...

ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS I HAD A GREAT TIME SPENDING WITH

MY DARLING!!!

To my other darlings...

Next date will be SENTOSA yeah ;D

2009-01-29T10:55:00.024+08:00

Let me just wish my friends HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR... I know I know a little too late to wish but it's ok I just wish anyway...

Every chinese new year, my family will always stay overnight at changi or east coast park. However, this year is a lil different because we went overseas (just Malaysia). We went to Malacca with my dad's eldest sis to her in-laws kampong for a night stay and then we head down to Port Dickson with my dad's colleague for 2 night stay. It was awesome. Especially the Port Dickson. I mean I've never been there before and the hotel that my dad's friend booked was super duper awesome. It was just near the beach.

Ok ok I think I'll just let the picture do it's talking aights...

We can ONLY get to eat SUBWAY in Malaysia because it's HALAL...

2009-01-22T10:52:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday went out with my 2 darlings... Ida and Suji darling... It's been a long time since we went out as a TRIO... We used to go out together and hang around at Clarke Quay... It was one of the best time ever... Well I shall not do the writing... Let the video tell you the story...

2009-01-12T21:27:00.017+08:00

As I've promised, I will upload the pictures taken from Bangkok... But I only have a few pictures (part I) with me, the rest is with my aunt... Like aunt like niece, as busy as always and like a month or later will I be able to upload pictures and send it to my friends... Haaz... Ook ok enough of talking and let the pictures to its talking :D

BANGKOK PART I

Once after we passed the check-in counter...

Family photos with Goofy and Donald...

My sis and her peace sign...

Above is the apartment that we stayed in Bangkok:

Somerset Park Suan Plu Bangkok

The paintings that they hang in the lobby... I like this picture... So artistic...

This is another painting...

So is this...

Me and my dad... The best walking ATM in Bangkok... haaz... Love him to bits [not only for money la]...

The youngest and the eldest sister...

The garden outside the apartment...

The only brother and our videoman through out the Bangkok trip...

The KPO younger sister with her vain brother...

I've been carrying 2 small sling bags and a small bag pack for the whole day...

Oh we just went in to take pictures and went out after that... haaz...

The 3 single ladies... Bibik Ana, me and Aunty Wan...

1...

2...

3...

My sis look like a 'mak cik kpo' without the black lens...

The Limited Edition of PEPSI...

Awww....

Awwwwwww.....

The retard elder sister...

Bangkok's train ticket...

Bangkok's train ticket...

OF COURSE WE LOVE SHOPPING!!!! who doesn't right?

My sis posing in front of the Hard Rock Cafe's retail shop...

Our last night in Bangkok... We let our hair down by doing jumping shot...

Home Sweet Home...

3rd January 2009

2009-01-09T10:22:00.016+08:00

Before leaving for shopping...

I know it's like almost a week ago and only now that I want to upload the pictures. Last Saturday, Suji and myself went out for a date... Hahaha... I was soo bloody bored staying at home on Friday that I decided to ask Suji if she has anything on Saturday... Luckily she has nothing on Saturday... So firstly, we plan to go and eat at Sakura International Buffet at Orchard... We met around 12 at Jurong East...

Before we went for our lunch, we went to buy movie tickets at Plaza Singapura... Bought tickets for Bedtime Stories at 4.10 so we have ample time to eat our lunch... After buying the tickets, we train-ed back to Somerset and went for our lunch... At Sakura International Buffet...

After lunch, walked to Dhoby Ghaut and the above picture is Suji being her normal self... Self-obssess... You can count how many time self-obessess-ing she was...

While waiting for the movie to start we cam-whore a little because the flash will make the people turn their heads round like as if their favourite idol is sitting in the same cinema as them lol...

Once after watching the bedtime stories, there goes the shopping... for Suji darling... I tell you she shop almost like nobody's business... She kept swipe-ing her atm card... Oops sorry let me correct that, is her MOM's atm card! hahahahaha.... Syiok only ar... hahahahaha...

But I was her lucky angel on that day of course... We went to the Charles & Keith at MS but unfortunately the shoes that she likes didn't have her size... She was a little disappointed but lucky thing there is the new Charles & Keith at City Link... So she tried her luck there with my help... Whatever shoes she chose, I helped her ask the sales person and got the size she wanted... See lucky angel huh... hahahaha... Tired of shopping, we went to eat dinner at BREEKS MS... It's been a long time since I last saw Chris, the management trainee there... Went there to visit her as well... hehehehe....

Oh and as you can see the one behind me is Simon Jerome. He is one of Zingrill's auditor who goes outlet to outlet with other 2 auditor to audit the outlets. Don't ask me what kind of auditing they do cause they have a lot of categories to look into.

To end the picture with unglam 5... It's been a whole day of shopping, eating and movie day. We had a lot of fun of course... We took the bus like around 9.30 - 10... and reached home almost 11ish...

Oklah.. That's the end of the post... Next will be my Bangkok pictures to be uploaded... Cheers people...

Life is Wonderful

2009-01-07T13:38:00.001+08:00

"Life Is Wonderful"

It takes a crane to build a crane

It takes two floors to make a story

It takes an egg to make a hen

It takes a hen to make an egg

There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word

And it takes some words to make an action

It takes some work to make it work

It takes some good to make it hurt

It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn

And it takes a day to make you yawn brother

And it takes some old to make you young

It takes some cold to know the sun

It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love

But it takes you years to know what love is

It takes some fears to make you trust

It takes those tears to make it rust

It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is so full of

Ah la la la la la la life is so rough

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ah la la la la la la life is our love

Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound

It takes a loss before you found it

And it takes a road to go nowhere

It takes a toll to make you care

It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful

Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle

Ha la la la la la life is wonderful

Ha la la la la la life is meaningful

Ha la la la la la life is wonderful

Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful

It is so meaningful

It is so wonderfulIt is meaningful

It is wonderful

It is meaningful

It goes full circleWonderful

Meaningful

Full circle

Wonderful

2009-01-06T10:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO

NUR DAMALIANA!!!

Finally the 2 has appeared in your age.... Hahahahahaha.... It's ok we will have the same 2 as you... May you have good luck and a bright year ahead of you darling :D

2009-01-02T22:15:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE...

MAY 2009 BRING A BETTER YEAR AHEAD FOR EVERYONE... CHEERS!!!

(sorry it might a little too late but no harm wishing anyway :D)

Spent the eve new year with Suji Darling at ECP... Countdown together... YEAH only the both of us LOL... But it's ok we had A LOT OF FUN didn't we darling? Oh and thank your mom for frying hotdogs and nuggets for both of us...

This was what happen to us at ECP.... Nothing tragic, no worries... hahahahaha...

Upon reaching at MacDonald at ECP, 'OH-MY-GOD' was our reaction... We couldn't believe our eyes... THERE WERE TOO MANY PEOPLE... YES TOO MANY + A LOT = OVER POPULATION.... hahahahahaha... And the 7 Eleven was gosh... Full of human... Hahahahaha....

So after buying drinks from behind the 7 Eleven which sold a 500ml bottle at $2 we went to find a spot for ourselves... Found and settled down till the countdown... We didn't miss anything much because there were a mini-fireworks from the ship and it is beautiful... Really beautiful... Unfortunately we didn't get to take any pictures because none of us brough a camera along lol...

We talked and talked so as to keep both of us awake... Since there were only both of us, we didn't dare to go to the toilet by ourselves and so we packed and went to the mac's toilet... It was long queue... That point of time... We wished we were a guy for once because the queue for the guys' toilet was super short or to be exact no queue at all!!! We waited but lucky thing it was not that long to wait... So after going to the toilet we went to 7 Eleven to buy drinks and before you could even enter the 7 Eleven, you have to queue outside and wait for your turn!... SEE what i mean by overpopulation? hahahahah

After buying our drinks, we went to find a spot on the other side of ECP... It was soo much quieter... But not long for our butts to warm the mat, we've been visited by my enemy... STUPID FROG had to jump near us and that made us packed and walked somewhere else... We didn't know where to go...

We went to atm to transfer money to my bro and I saw one of this actor who acted in the little nyonya... His name in the drama was Yamamoto Yousuke (Dai Yang... I got soo happy and suji was like 'whatever' to me... hahahaha... I think he's good looking :D

Done with transfering, we walked back to the same place when we first reached... I guess that day was my lucky day... After I saw 'Yamamoto Yousuke' (Dai Yang Tian), I saw Muhsin... hahahahaha... What a new chapter to begin with in 2009 huh :D ok ok... Carry on with my story... We walked like almost all the places and I think people can recognize us already... We've been walking the same place over and over again... In the end we ended up behind BK somewhere near the carpark and lay our mat there... AGAIN not long for our butts to warm the mat... We've been visited by Suji's enemy... THE BATS... Hahahahaha... So we will have to move... In the end, we went to Macdonald and settled ouside the mac.. Didn't buy anything from mac just sat there for a while and chatted until about 4.30 - 5... We walked slowly to the void deck and chill there for a while then left for Bugis...

Reached Bugis at around 6 in the morning... Sat there for a while till the building is open, then we washed our face and get changed... Had breakfast at mac and Suji slept for A WHILE!!! Wanted to catch a movie, Yes Man at Bugis but it's not showing there so we went all the way to Marina Square... It was dead town according to Suji... Super DEAD... Like it's not Marina to be soo quiet...

We head home after watching YES MAN... So effing tired but had fun spending the night with Suji Darling at ECP... hehehhehe... Oklah... I'm watching The Little Nyonya now... Cheers :D

2008-12-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

This post will be boring for - well maybe majority because it is about my work AGAIN!...
If you don't want to read... Just leave and come back again when other entries have been posted... For those who still want to know what happen, just bear with it aights? Coz it's long winded...

I'm just curious... Super duper curious... What the hell is going on in my manager and supervisor's mind!!! If I say that they are insane, it's not true because they are way better than an insane person... Or maybe an insane is better than these 2? WHAT'S HAPPENING TO THESE 2 IRRITATING PIECE OF SHIT?! I respect both of you but at the same time you both just don't WORTH my respect...

Let me tell you why...

First of all, let's start with the management at work... I understood and already have a clearer picture of why my senior quit and left the work... Adi (used to be one of my senior) told me that the management is atrocious... But I see NO fault with the management... Well I was just a normal waitress then... I thought that I kind of like the management when the BITCH actually took over the restaurant... I was proved WRONG... When I am in Adi's position, being a Senior Waitress actually open up my eyes to see that the management could have done way better and there's a lot of room for improvement in terms of communication with the staffs or to be exact UNDERSTAND THE STAFFS WELL... But let's put that aside for now shall we... I think that the BITCH and her assistant must first have the right communication...

When I was a trainee, I had one senior to myself to guide me throughout the whole day on my first working day... I learn from them and thankful for who I am right now in terms of work... I used to HATE the previous manager and now to think back she is ALRIGHT... The BITCH and her assistant should empower the senior to guide the trainees so that the trainee will not feel lost while doing work... I somehow pity my trainees for not being able to get the right training when they first came to work... Maybe it's time I make my own move and to my trainees... I just want to apologize to you people that I WILL TURN FROM 'LENIENT SENIOR' TO A 'BITCH SENIOR'... Whatever it is, it is for your own good because the management suck balls right now...

TO THE BITCH AND HER ASSISTANT, IF YOU CAN'T MANAGE THE RESTAURANT, HAVE SOME INITIATIVE TO ASK FEEDBACK FROM THE STAFF ABOUT THE MANAGEMENT...

Secondly, have I ever told you BITCH, that you need to learn to understand and appreciate people's character... Not all you fancy but at least APPRECIATE and UNDERSTAND their character... You have been observing us and you should know us by now... You are called MANAGER AND SUPERVISOR for a REASON!!! Not just for the sake of having the title!!! What's the point of having the title but you just don't know how to handle us... WHY ON THIS FUCKING WORLD MUST YOU BRING IN A THIRD PARTY TO SOLVE OUR PROBLEM FOR YOU... IT CLEARLY SHOWS HOW STUPID AND HOW USELESS YOU ARE AS A MANAGER AND SUPERVISOR... I didn't know that STUPIDITY can get over you huh...

Those who you don't fancy, is actually hardworking and has always been helping you a lot when you need someone to work... When you don't need them, you gave excuses saying that their attitude is no good, need to be sent over to other outlet to learn how to behave... FUCK ALL THAT EXCUSES MAN... Well I do agree that sometimes we went overboard during operation hour but there's always this thing called 'warning letter' or talk to the person and give advice? As simple as that... If the person eventually refuse to change, then maybe you will have got no choice but to send to other outlet...

Maybe both of you just need to go for leadership course and upgrade yourself to be a better manager and supervisor...

I'm tired of saying all this already... What I know, my level of respect is DECLINING...

2008-12-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

FINALLY!!!

After sooo long of wanting to do IT I just did today!!! YAY!!! Guess what? I actually DYED my hair after sooooo long of wanting to dye my 'painted' black hair... I got 6BR for my hair... BR stands for brown raspberry I guess... But yeah that's the colour... It may not look so obvious but under the light you can see the colour... I was scared and excited at the same time when I sat on the chair waiting my hair to be filled with chemical because my grandma and my mom don't allow me to dye my hair... So that's why I picked the colour which is not so obvious...

Suji darling accompanied me to the saloon and she was the one who got so excited about this la... hahahahaha... Another minah is joining your club huh darling?! hahahahhaa... There's no pictures right now it's with suji darling... When I got it from here I'll upload the pics yeah?! oklah gtg... :D

2008-12-04T00:58:00.004+08:00

Day after day, week after week, month after month, the managers are getting so annoying, irritating and fucked up at the same time. Really thought that after changing from one bitch manager to another 'not-yet-a-bitch' manager, was a relieve.

BUT NO! I was WRONG!!!

I thought that I could get away from the first bitch and now I am or rather WE are stuck with a serious bitch-in-process manager!!! Believe it or not she is a BIAS bitch!

I've never seen a manager who is soo DUMB or rather STUPID if you wanna call that, give a CASHIER pose to a trainee who has just started work like only less than 4 days?!!! Yeap that's right! Less than 4 days and she is a cashier already!!

So let's start from the first day the new trainee started to work - which was on Monday... On Monday, I got a feedback from my waiter(s) telling me that the BITCH actually put a 'first-day-trainee' as a cashier when there is a waiter who can at least learn how to be a cashier rather than a trainee... See the difference?! WAITER & TRAINEE?!

Even though the BITCH thinks that this waiter has got no good attitude but I know he is WILLING to learn if only the BITCH gives him the chance... I see the potential in him being a good staff... Just don't judge a book by it's cover you BITCH!!!

So next, today was the new trainee 2nd day of work! Surprisingly, there were a few waiter/waitress who can do cashier for today's lunch hour but the BITCH just refuse to let the waiters/waitress to do the cashier... She then again let the new trainee do cashier...

So what's the use of having a waiter on duty when a serious BITCH can give the cashier pose to the waiter?! So what happened today? SHORT OF $27 plus i heard!!! SERVE YOUR ARSE RIGHT BITCH!!!

Another thing that makes me feel so FUCKED UP right now is YOU HAVE NEVER LET A SENIOR DO OPENING FOR CASHIER AND OUT OF NOWHERE YOU LET A TRAINEE DO OPENING FOR CASHIER... WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN YOUR SEVERELY BRAIN DAMAGED BITCH?! ARE YOU INSANE OR WHAT?!

Ouh and the best thing is that when a senior or any waiter who is doing cashier just stands at the cashier area, you will ask them to do prebuss and clear the table, wipe the table, clean this clean that... And when the new trainee just stood at the cashier area this morning, you did nothing of the sort to her like what you did to us!!! THIS IS NOT A FAIR GAME BITCH!!! YOU WANNA PLAY A GAME WITH US... LET THE BATTLE BEGIN!

Just a lesson to learn BITCH... HAVE MORE TRUST IN YOUR SENIOR, WAITER AND WAITRESS!!! DO NOT TRUST TRAINEE JUST YET BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOT SEEN THE REAL SIDE OF THEM!!

2008-11-17T21:28:00.002+08:00

Here's the new phrases I found in the Dove PEPPERMINT :D

1) Friends come and go but chocolate lasts till it's use by date. (kinda disagree wit the statement)

2) Hand over the chocolate and no one gets hurt. (i love this phrase)

3) I don't love chocolate. I worship, respect and adore it! (cute :D)

4) When in doubt, mumble. When in trouble, delegate.

5) Change is inevitable, except from vending machines.

2008-11-14T00:01:00.002+08:00

WARNING!!!

Those who don't like MINT/PEPPERMINT

BEWARE!!!

nah... I was just kidding... hahahaha... ;D

Have I ever told you that Chocolate with peppermint or anything that is MINT is loved by me??!!

Or even if I've told you I would like to tell you again!!! Coz I just discovered that there's

Dove playfully PEPPERMINT!!!

It is awesome... Well only to mint/peppermint lovers - you will like this chocolate!!!

The cute thing about this chocolate is that inside every wrappings, there will be a phrase... So far, I've discovered:

msg 1: There's a time for compromise. It is called LATER.

msg 2: If you can't have your cake and eat it too, what's the point?

msg 3: Everyone is gifted. Some just open the package too sooner.

msg 4: Give me chocolate right now or I will sing!

msg 5: She who laughs last thinks slowest _ _ _ _ _ ??

msg 6: Happiness is contagious

To some of you, maybe you think that these messages are just ridiculous, but try to read again and you will understand!!!

If you wish to purchase Dove chocolate besides peppermint of course, you can get it at The Candy Empire.

HAPPY erm.. 'BELATED' DEEPAVALI?!

2008-10-31T12:37:00.002+08:00

I know i know it's like 4 days ago only now I want to wish my Darling and her family Happy Deepavali...

Sorry yeah Suji Darling... Really got no time to blog nowadays...

So Darling Happy 'Belated' Deepavali to you and your family yeah :D

OH... As always your mummy's cook food is sooo YUMMYLICIOUS!!! Especially the

SAMBAL PRAWN!!! hahahahahaha....

Will update the photos once it has been edited yeah :D

Raya With SGBJ-ians

2008-10-18T23:13:00.009+08:00

These pictures were taken with the SGBJ-ians on the 10th of October... So I won't be saying anything just let the pictures do its talkings aights ;D

ECP wit SGBJ-ians

2008-10-18T22:29:00.006+08:00

Picture was taken before I left for ECP...
Loving couple :D

Girl buddies at SGBJ...
The few family members..
Zulfadli & Fiffie

Seriosly I have no comment...

I was suppose to take picture of Mas, Fiffie, Wan and Ridz but I just popped up in front of Zul's camera... hehehe
The guys at SG...
Zul did this on purpose...

busy with photo shooting? :v
the melayu 'celop'...
Fly them to the moon...

RAYA WIT DARLINGS & GFs...

2008-10-16T12:50:00.005+08:00

2008-10-05T22:25:00.009+08:00

This year, my family chose to wear PURPLE for HARI RAYA... Heheheheh... Been out for Hari Raya outing during weekends and I'M DAMN BEAT... Too tired to type... Just let the picture do its talking(s) yeah... OH just ignore the first & second pic... Just for display... heheheh... Enjoy :D

2008-09-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

It's been a FREAKING LONG WEEKS since I last updated my posts. There wasn't anything much that's going on in my life. Just a simple process... school - work - home OR school - home - sleep... hahahaha...

Well, didn't go to school today because my Service Quality & Professional Etiquette faci wanted to bring us for a field trip... I have no effing idea where he wanted to bring us... I find that it is a waste of my time going to such places and decided to stay home and catch some wonderful sleep... Hehehehehe...

Oh went shopping with my mummy and sis at my usual spot at Bugis... We shop for shoes and bags for Hari Raya... Actually I wanted to do last minute shopping on the eve but my mom said NO and wanted me to help at my grandma's house on the eve... So she have to pay for my expenses first :D

Oh have I ever tld you that Charles & Keith and Perllini has been my wonderful and fantastic friend for Hari Raya?... They are the only brands that I go for my shopping... Especially for shoes... Charles & Keith is the best shoes outlet to go for... I like to see their heels... It's OH-SO-TEMPTING to buy all the heels... hahahaha...

I'm worn out already from the shopping... It was lucky that my dad take us home... At least don't have to stand in the train... Oklah... To my GFs... Don't say I never update my blog OK??

To my GFs and other Muslim friends who FAST... SELAMAT BERPUASA & SELAMAT HARI RAYA...

2008-08-06T08:47:00.006+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls... Please put our hands together to welcome our Ms Ida and together we shall sing a Birthday song for her...

Happy Birthday to you...

Happy Birthday to Ida...

Happy Birthday to you...

Happy 19th Birthday Ida...

May all your wishes come true...

2008-07-25T08:24:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY YEAR 1 SEM 2 CLASSMATE...

IZWAN NAZREE BIN OTHMAN...

2008-07-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it's BETTER to be ALONE...

Free to do whatever you want and nothing bothers you...

I just need some space to think...

Just some space...

I am sorry...

Among cloudy skies,
Strong winds bend trees as they blow.
A cold night without a soul in sight,
As I walk without an umbrella.

Then rain pours down.
At first, a drizzle
Next, a downpour.

And all that matters is...
A single soul under the pouring rain
Wet with thoughts of you.

2008-07-18T17:11:00.002+08:00

EMPTY?! Have you ever felt lonely before? Do you know what it feels like to be empty inside?

Well I don't know about YOU but I sure do... I keep telling myself that it's ok... It won't hurt to be alone...

As I keep telling myself that, I feel more and more empty, lonely and LOST!!! I feel that I am your alternative friend now... I said to my little heart that people change...It is very hard to be who you were once before...YES I AGREE!!!

But why?! Why do I still feel like this? I don't know... It hurts a lot to be pretending not to see you when I actually saw you... It hurts a lot not saying HI! and laughed at our own stupid jokes...

It hurts even more that it seems to me that you don't even care or bother about it...

Where has all the long conversations gone to? Where has all the sarcasm gone to?

WHERE?WHERE?WHERE? It just fades away...

You may think that I am OK with it... Well, yes... But WAS!!! NOW... No longer...

I really can't stop you...

But just a small favour... Think about US before... Think about US now!... There's so much difference...

I may seem to put up a very strong front... Do you actually know that it bleeds whenever I think about US? From a stranger's eyes, they know how close we were once...

But now...

I want to apologize if I have done something wrong before... I AM REALLY REALLY SORRY...

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl

It feeds on loneliness and creates a void

Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture

A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here

The little one has thrown in the towel today

Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul

It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman

In this girl, this child where hollows have bred

A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes

And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her

Leaving nothing considered worthy remains

Destined to walk through life less ordinary

Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

2008-05-26T10:55:00.002+08:00

I've never mentioned about my Yr 2 Sem 1 class before in my blog... Coz I think that they are not worth talking about good things in my blog... They are just a bunch of arrogant bitches and bastards I dare say... They think that they do better than others... Well if you think that way bitches and bastards, YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY WRONG!!! I think the people who you have been looking down upon is doing a better research than you SMART ASS!!! Stop thinking that all of them likes you... Well in the matter of fact is that they DESPISE your attitude and your actions... So stop being someone who you think people HAVE TO BOW AND KISS YOUR DAMN SMELLY FEET!!! I really don't understand this kind of people... Well maybe this year is really not my luck to have a good classmates... This is the kind of people I will face in the working world... Haiz... They are the REASONS for my almost-frequently absence in class... Just a bunch of idiots I don't like to face... I just can't wait for my one week holiday and I won't get to see them for AT LEAST A WEEK!!! THANK GOD!! Anyways... I have nothing much to write already... EXCEPT that I am very hungry... Hahahahaha... CHEERIOS!

2008-05-09T16:01:00.001+08:00

Went to do threading with Ida Darling and Suji Darling at Khatib. The feeling was sensation NOT!!! The lady really seems to put all her effort to pluck off my access hair!!! Hahahahaha... However, I think the lady did a marvelous job in plucking all the unwanted hair!!! Hahahahahaha... I LIKE!!! After we were done with the threading, we headed down to BAGOS at IMM... I MISS CHAI CHEE NOODLE and is going back again for MORE!!! Hehehehehehe...

Ouh GUESS what?! Yesterday we had a joke of ERA according to Suji Darling... and a joke of the NIGHT to me... SOMEONE made us laugh our lungs, heart, intestines all out... Hahahahaha... Ok Ok... I never tell her that I am going to post about it in my BLOG... Hmmm... Well I think I shouldn't la... I don't want her to get embarrassed.... However, I will give a question... Go and think about the answer for youself and tag me if you know the answer yeah?...

So... Here's the question...

"What's the difference between KIWI and KIWI?"

Easy right?... Nyehehehehehehe.... Do tag me back if you know the answer... :-)

2008-04-28T00:55:00.009+08:00

Yesterday was Wayan's last day in Singapore... The SGBJ crews decided to see him off for the last time... Well not all were there... Total there were 7 of us... Shan, Alfee, Tam, Muhd, Sulhi, Fifi and Me... His flight was at 7 in the evening... So we talked and cam whore here and there... When he was about to go in to the departure hall, I almost cried.. MY PART-TIME BOYFRIEND is FINALLY LEAVING FOR BALI!!! Well, almost all of us wanted to cry... He was like a part of us and when he is finally leaving for home, we felt the lost!!! WAYAN... WE GONNA MISS YOU AND we are missing you at this moment... At least we do have sweet memories working with him... Ouh and I still remember his flight no. VF541 Valuair... Haha.. Oklah... I have nothing else to say... As I have promised to upload the pictures... Let the pictures do the talking yeah?

2008-04-25T10:02:00.002+08:00

23/04/08 marks Wayan's last day in Seoul Garden Bugis Junction. It was a memorable day for him, I'm sure. We really made that day a special one for him. SPECIAL by our definition is "SABO-ing" hahahahaha... After our daily-briefing, Gopi took a few eggs in his hands and then smashed it on Wayan's head. He was all egg-y and still not enoug of that, Gopi put ice-cream tub (chocolate-chip, almost finished) on his head... Wuahahahaha... He was all covered with STICKY food... Hahahahahaha... I did take some pictures but will upload it a few days later because there are still more to go with sending him off to the airport...

To I Wayan Sudi Atmaja, [though he is not reading this but I just want to show my appreciation for him :-)]

Thanx for the wonderful 6 months in SGBJ... It's been a great working experience to be able to work with you... Although there are ups and downs that you've gone through hell in that outlet, you managed to survive with a few cuts on your arms as a memorable cuts from SGBJ... Just one thing that I want to say, don't forget us when you are back in Bali... And, when you are in Singapore, do visit us in SGBJ OK? Oh also, don't forget your part-time girlfriend... She will miss you for sure... Hahahahahaha... Oklah nothing much to say already... I will upload pictures SOON... How soon? I don't know... Maybe by Monday?? Cya peepz...

2008-04-11T13:40:00.002+08:00

So let's continue from where we've stopped...

05/04/08 - My special day... Happy 19th Birthday to myself... Hehehe... Actually I was suppose to meet up with my Yr 1 Sem 2 classmates... Unfortunately I can't because my family already plan to celebrate my birthday... So to my classmates I am really sorry that I can't meet up with you people... Maybe next time ok?

On my special day, I can actually count how many Birthday songs I get from the people that have celebrated my day...

(1) Here goes, before I could wake up, my sister already singing birthday song for me... She kept singing and singing until I finally woke up and gave her a kiss and a thank you... Sweet huh my sister? Very cute of her...

(2) My family and I went to IMM Swensens to celebrate my birthday... While the supervisor were taking our orders, I asked if there's any special birthday treat... He said if we order 4 main courses, the cheapest price will get free and the Fire House Happy Birthday is on the house... So ya lah we ordered the 4 main courses... After our meal, my sister can't wait to eat the ice-cream she kept asking about the ice-cream... Once after the ice-cream finally arrived, the crews there sang for me a birthday song... So sweet but I'm a bit embarrassed lah... Hahahaha... So yeah the second birthday song...

(3) After going out with my family, I went to find my colleagues (Jack, Sophie, Muhd, Henry, Ricardo, Chris and Ricardo's friends) because they also want to celebrate my birthday... I brought my sister along and meet up with the rest at Marina Square BREEKS... They asked me where I want to eat... It's been a long time since I ate at BREEKS... So I decided to eat at BREEKS lol... After eating I wanted to order ice-cream for my sister but Chris said don't... She ordered Massive Attack for us... While waiting for the Massive Attack, I suddenly heard a birthday song and turned back and saw Sally and another guy brought out the Massive Attack with a candle on top... Sally's voice alone can cover the whole environment... Hahahaha... The third birthday song...

(4) Bid goodbye to Ricardo and his friends... So we head down to meet with Ardi at Plaza Sing... He said he finished work at 9.30 and we ended up waiting for him in front of 7 11 until 10.30... While waiting for Ardi to come, my parents called and said that they want to pick my sister up... So after my sis went back home, this Ardi still have not finished... Can't blame him for that maybe he needs to settle a lot of things... Once he came, he, Chris and Henry wanted to play pool... That made us went all the way back to Bugis... Jack, Sophie and Muhd went back... So that left with Chris, Henry, Ardi and me... They played pool and I was there watching them play... I'm an idiot who doesn't even know the rules of the game and don't mention about holding the stick itself la... Got a bit horny with Chris... She kept touching my you-know-what and I touched hers and say yours is bloody flat la... Hahahahaha... While Henry and Chris play... Ardi was MIA... Don't know where he go also... After a while later he came back with a cup cake filled with overwhelming chocolate and a candle on top... They sang for me another birthday song in the pool room and I was sooo bloody embarrassed and I covered my face lah... Shan was using her opportunity to sabo me by taking the chocolate and stroke it on my cheek... Thanx ar Shan... Hahahahah... They played until like almost 1 and we made a move... Bid goodbye to Chris and her donald duck girlfriend (*oops.. pretend that I never say anything about her Girlfriend*) and Shan... That left with Henry, Ardi and me... We went all the way to Capitol Center and took the Night Rider 5... I alighted with Ardi at Clementi and we went to grab a bite and sat at the top of the multi-purpose carpark and star gazing... It's very peaceful I tell you.. It was already like 1.30 a.m there... We talked, share our secrets and our worries... It's a worthwhile moment to be able to spend time with Ardi... At last it was like 4.30 a.m in the morning and we made a move... I reached home like 5 a.m in the morning! (I'm dead if my parents know about this)...

In total I heard 4 birthday songs on my special day and 1 on the eve... This year I had a meaningful birthday surprises from my lovely darlings, my best colleagues and my dearest family... I LOVE YOU ALL...

2008-04-10T15:36:00.003+08:00

Anyways... I had a wonderful birthday surprises from my darlings, colleagues and family. Let me bring you along to my wonderful surprises... First up will be my darlings...

04/04/08 - it's the eve of my special day and a meaningful one... So here goes, it was last Friday and I was suppose to meet with Suji darling after my work at 5... Usually before I meet her I will eat first, take my time coz she is used to it already... While I was eating this girl was at city hall... So I still take my own sweet time to eat... Half way finishin my food this girl was waiting outside my workplace.... So I went to get change and another text came in "Don't eat too much la, eat with me later". After I got changed I went out from Seoul Garden and to my surprise, I saw Denise Darling, Yee Ling Darling and Ida Darling in front of the Seoul Garden... I was shocked to see them and they brought along a huge card with my faces pasted on it which says HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!

Initially my plan with Sujitha was to go to Sim Lim to upgrade my laptop's RAM size to 1GB... This Suji Darling said that "we are not going to Sim Lim and you are following us"... My immediate reaction was WTF I brought my laptop along and it's fucking heavy!!! She wanted to tell me that she don't want to go to Sim Lim but she don't want to sound as if there's something fishy going on... So OKLAH I followed them and was like very blur and at the same time was nervous... I don't know what they are going to do me but yeah... They brought me all the way to Marina Square's Pizza Hut and there I saw another 3 darlings, Zarinna Darling, Ivy Darling and Dama Darling... Another surprised ones... So we ordered our food and stuffs ourselves with the oh-so-OK dinner... After our dinner, Dama Darling went inside the kitchen don't know for what and a while later, the Pizza Hut's light went dark and I thought it was just a normal black out... Then came along this Birthday tune... To my surprise I saw Dama bringing out a box of cup cakes with candles and almost drop to tears but I controlled... OH THEY ARE SOOO SWEET!!! Made cup cakes for my birthday gift... They also made a collage with all our photos together!! Like you know those fan clubs? Hahahaha... After making a wish, I really dropped to tears... ALL the while I was thinking that I couldn't celebrate my special day with my darlings because they have something on... I AM REALLY SURPRISED DARLINGS! I REALLY DO!!

After the whole thing, we went all the way back to Bugis... When we reached Bugis the 4 of us were feeling hungry... Ivy,Ida, Denise and me... So we went to find Chika at TCC... Went there to eat and chill... Chika was sweet and bought me a cheesecake... Not just a normal cheesecake but a presentable cheesecake... After that we all went back home...

I know I have told you darlings before but I'm saying it again... I LOVE YOU DARLINGS AND YOU GIRLS ME MAKE LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY! THIS IS ONE OF THE BEST BIRTHDAY SURPRISES EVER!!! THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!

To be continued...

2008-04-10T15:19:00.003+08:00

Damn, how come I'm not in schoold today? I usually make a practice to go to school the first few weeks without even taking an off day from the weeks.

I woke up late this morning and my body was already aching all over the place. Still need to go to Seoul Garden NAC later at 6.30p.m... Haiz... OK let's move on... The funny thing is that, I keep waking up freakin early in the morning like 4 a.m and I thought I wanted to go and bathe. When I check back the time, it was only 4.19 a.m! So I went back to sleep... An hour later, which is 5.20, I woke up again. I thought I heard my alarm clock rang and I woke up. This time I really brought my towel along to the toilet. While I was doing my *business* I was thinking how come it was soo quiet. I went out again and check the time. It is ONLY 5.25 a.m! WHAT THE FUCK! So I went back to bed and sleep. Now, this time round, which I was suppose to hear my alarm clock ring, it didn't ring. I slept until like 7+ and I AM LATE to my darlings on the platform!!! So I text Denise darling that I am not able to go to school today. Moreover, I am sooo damn tired today to go to school. Haiz...

Anyways... Wait for my next entries about my birthday surprises...

2008-04-10T00:40:00.004+08:00

Have I ever told you about my biggest FEAR regarding work? If I have not, here's your chance of reading it. If I have, I'm going to tell you again... My BIGGEST ever FEAR is.......... when I hear the word TAKA!!! YES! I mean Takashimaya or in another words Ngee Ann City (NAC)... The thought of going to NAC to work with Seoul Garden there makes me want to pee in my pants...

I have never in my FREAKING entire 13 MONTHS and 8 DAYS work with Seoul Garden NAC... I thought I don't have to work with them but the thought I thought wasn't the thought I thought I thought... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STRESSED UP... REALLY...

Maybe to some of you, you will say "what's the big deal? It's only at TAKA not as if you have to go across the country to work?" Let me tell you why I don't really want to go to TAKA and work...

Firtsly, it's because of the seniors there, I heard they are not as friendly as our SGBJ seniors... They bully you big time... Secondly, the outlet is almost twice the SGBJ outlet... Thirdly, I don't really know how to get there... Fourth, *this might be stupid but yeah* I don't know where to put my belongings, I don't know where all the soup pitchers are placed and the hotplates... Fifth, I have to use the old concept which I have forgotten how to... Lastly, the closing... I heard they closes at 11+ then you can go home... WTF!! I have school tomorrow and I have to wake up FREAKING EARLY in the MORNING!!! ARGH!!! Just my luck tomorrow...

People if you are kind enough and don't like to see me suffer, PRAY for me... At least I am not being bullied by them... Psst, too dramatic huh?... Anyways... I hope I'll survive the war tomorrow... Of all the days, they must ask me to go there on THURSDAY?! ARGH!!! #$^%^&*&&*&*%^&%$$%^$%&**!!!!!!!!!!!!

NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY, NGEE ANN CITY.. WELCOME TO HELL!!!

YEE LING...

2008-03-25T22:33:00.004+08:00

Yee Ling...
I know you are MAD at us right now and don't want to hear anymore bullshits from us. I know how you feel and I respect whatever reaction you are giving us because I feel that we deserve it. Even if you don't want to hear anything anymore, I am still writing this to you... It's up to you to choose to read or not...

REALLY, I am very sorry that I didn't invite you to Ivy's birthday celebration. If you want to blame on someone, blame it on me because I was the one who actually organised this celebration. You don't have to give cold shoulders to anyone. I know the 'why' questions are still in your mind. Frankly speaking, I myself don't have the answers to that. If you think I am just writing to make you pleased by all this, it's up to you. I feel terribly bad as well that I didn't invite you.

I've read your blog and thanx to your Baby and Denise that they made me realised that you are abandoned by us. I know you'll say BULLSHIT about this but I am still writing it down.

Yee Ling, even though you felt abandoned and neglected, we still treasure and cherish your friendship. Your friendship matters to all of us. I feel that FRUITIES are drifting apart. However, those in contact will try to keep it going. I do hope that you will keep it going as well. I don't want to lose anymore fruities.

We will not repeat the HISTORY, I PROMISE. We will go through ups and downs together OK? Whatever happens, I just want to let you know that we are still friends. We humans can't run away from making silly mistakes. I think I have said enough. It's all up to you. I respect your decision. Like I said, we do treasure your friendship.

P.S: We can't avoid silly mistakes...
But we can TRY to avoid them...

2008-03-03T16:25:00.002+08:00

It has been a month... In fact more than a month since I last update my entries... I have been busy with work... Been working for like 6 days a week... I think i can consider myself as a full timer... Full shift and more full shift... At least i don't slack at home... hehe... No offended parties yeah... Today is my off day... Sleep and woke up late!!! I LIKE!! Hahaha... Actually I don't have anything much to update... Everything has been the same to me... No changes...

Sometimes, I do meet up with my girlfriends every friday because that's the only day that I work until 5... We went for dinner, chat till like 11 plus then off we head for home... Hehehehe... We shall meet up again yeah?? I'm not sure if Friday we can meet up again... We shall see how it goes ok?? Oklah nothing much to update... Cya...

2008-01-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

Me in the lorry waiting for the traffic to turn GREEN!!!

The 3 siblings...

The cousins...

The cousins again...

My brother...

Me and Ain...

Me and my quarrelling partner Sofian...

The pitching of tent... Hehehe..

VOILA!! It's almost done...

Insyirah, me and Syakir...

Happy faces I see there... :-)

Our Birthday girl...

Home-made cake... It tastes yummylicious... The chocolate is heaven...

The lighting of the candle ceremony...

*Sings* Happy Birthday to you (x2) Happy Birthday to Insyirah...
Happy Birthday to y0u... blow...

The KPO in action... hahahaha...

Oops... The knife is a little bit weird though... hehehe...

Insyirah and Fatehah...

Busu with Ryan... Oops sorry Busu your face been cut off... hehe...

The two siblings... 3rd aunt and mom...

The olden days...

My relatives...

Mak busu and family...

My uncle and me...

Sunset...

The three cousins...

2008-01-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

I've been busy with work, work, work... I'm feeling damn lethargic everyday... It's a lucky thing that I decided to take offs for 2 saturdays... Yesterday and next week... Yesterday had a mini-belated celebration for sis birthday... Everything went smoothly... It's not like as if there's games or what... It's just that yesterday was a fine day... Good weather though... Nothing much to talk about... I'll just let the pictures do the talkings... Cya peeps...

Oh oh... We're left with one more week to school and off we go for holidays... Woohoo... 10 weeks of holiday... To people who is not having any holidays just yet... Sit back and envy our free time yeah... Hahahaha... Soo long peeps... OH to someone... RP rocks eh... Especially when it comes to holidays... hur hur...

And and... I can't wait for the movie on the 2nd Feb... 27 Dresses yeah... Shall we go clubbing? I dunno... I'm not sure... We shall see how it goes ar... Alrighty cya... Cheers...

2008-01-21T10:55:00.000+08:00

Have you ever worked with someone who is god damn lazy... GOD DAMN LAZY!!! I really hate it when someone ask you for help and they reply with "Eh, that's not my job. My job is only to do this this this, so don't ask me to do it." My immediate reaction will be FUCK OFF!!! It's not as if the senior ask you to go and JUMP DOWN from a building. They just ask you to inform the customers about the closing of the buffet counters and is that so hard for you since you have nothing else to do besides counting the money?!!! That's why I told Sir that I have got no faith in you doing cashier.

Nevertheless, you should at least have some experience on how to handle the cashier. But that doesn't mean you can't help with the other jobs... I only have 3 words to describe you... GOD DAMN LAZY!!!

Please lah, if you want to work please do your job and help others... If not just get the hell out from the workplace and go find yourself a job which requires you to laze around...

Another thing... Cashier's job for closing is just to clean the ice-cream counter and the the drink counter... Is that SOO HARD for you???!!! You only have to do 2 things and yet you asked me to help you wash the ice-cream pane?! WHAT THE FUCK?? Who do you think I am? Your MARIA?!! I have a hell lot of things to do for floor and when you have finished cleaning those jobs of yours... You don't even know how to take the initiative to wash the kitchen... SEE?! You are such a LAZY ASS!!! I don't know how to describe you already... YOU ARE WAY TOOOO MUCH!!! TOO MUCH!!!

2008-01-15T09:15:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I blog about the happenings that's been going around me... Firstly, about my trip to KL-Malacca... It was fun, I slept like a log whenever I enter the car coz I was damn tired after almost 24 hours of non-sleep during the chalet... We went to Malacca just to spend a night at the QueensPark Hotel and went window shopping yes I say again just window shopping coz we know we can get almost the same thing as what we saw at Malacca when we go to the PS (Petaling Street) hehehe... So when we reached KL, we stayed at an apartment called The Zon... Went to all common places like the Bukit Bintang, Lot 10, Little India (Masjid India), Titiwangsa where the Eye on Malaysia is and of course not forgetting the Suria KLCC but we didn't go to the twin tower hehehe... OK enough of my trip to KL...

Next, about my workplace... Last Thursday, I was damn fucking pissed... The minimum manpower we should have on floor is 7... But on that day we had only 5!!! If it falls on Monday i don't really mind because usually Monday it won't be packed... This is Thursday!!! Had to multi task all the jobs at once... Did clearing of tables, top-up soups and lead the guest to the table!!! ARGH!!! I don't blame my two colleagues who can't make it for the day because they had office skill's test... Haiz... But to my other colleagues who survived on that day... WE DID IT!!! hahaha...

Lastly, this morning... I was bloody clumsy... Too engrossed listening music in my MP3 and I didn't even notice that there's a hole right in front of me... Guess what? My left leg went inside the hole and I fall and my knee were not-so-badly-bruised by the rough ground... Haiz... What a day... Lucky thing that I'm not working today... At least can rest for a day and recharge my battery (energy)...

To all RP students... WE ARE LEFT WITH ONLY 15 more days to school holidays!!! YAY!!! Alright peeps... Cheerios... Byez...

2007-12-31T00:37:00.000+08:00

Alright... Now it's time for me to update about the chalet but without the pictures yeah... The pictures will be in the next entry... So, we had chalet on the 17th till the 19th of Dec... It was at Changi Safra Resort... It was a bungalow and it's very spacious... I LIKE!!! hahaha... The few girls who went with the car was amazed by how it looks like and we kept saying "WAH!" all over the place... hahaha... Sorry we are local tourist if you want to put it that way... Hahaha... There were quite a few of the girls who didn't manage to turn up on the first night... I think I enjoyed most on the first night rather than the second night... Not referring to anyone but I am just writing what I feel...

We did as planned... The theme I mean... The MIS-FIT CASUAL!!! Hahahaha.... It was funny and hilarious... There was once we had to fight for the remote control and switched off the main button so nobody was able to watch tv.. hahaha... We had 5 cute models and 3 nerd judges... The judges look fuckin retard!! hahaha.. All in all we had fun... We ate after the theme thingy and sat at the couch... chatted and played games a bit here and there.... got so tired and off we went for a shower and went to bed...

So the second day... We went to Tampines Mall to buy a few things including Zarinna's and Eng Yi Wen's birthday cake... Did a bit of shopping and off we went back to the chalet with Yee Ling and Ange meeting us at the shuttle bus area... Once got back... I slept a little because I was feeling sick and drowsy... So after I woke up, helped the girls to get the BBQ stuffs ready and some were just too lazy to set the fire like ME! But hey we took turns OK?! Then a few of the guests reached and ate the bbq food and left... *To Suji and Ida... I was sorry for giving my fucking face on that day... You girls know I can't hide my expression if I'm damn fucking pissed... So moving along... When MC came to the chalet he found it's weird to bbq with the aluminium foil wrapped around the wire gauze... And a few minutes later he took over and I don't believe myself to be saying this but... The food turned out to be DAMN FANTASTIC la... Thought me quite a lot for the bbq... Thanx Chef MC... So as time passes by, more unexpected happenings happened... But we managed to celebrate Zarry's birthday and sabo her... About the happenings... I'm not going to elaborate what happened because I do not want to hurt any party and I'm glad that MC turned up and stayed over during the chalet... Thanx man... Like I said... I owe you one... And you can be a good bartender too... Hahahaha...

To MC...
I learn quite a lot from you that day when we were talking the whole night... I didn't know you were like that... You don't look like one but looks can be deceiving... Hey I'm still feeling guilty about it but I'm trying very hard to tell myself whatever you told me that night... Like I said... you are a fucking good friend and it's a pleasure to get to know you... OK I flatter you quite a bit already... HAPPY?? HAHAHA..

So girlfriends.. You are strongly adviced to add MC in your friendster account so we are able to widen our social circle... He is like one of us now right? Like you girls said... OUR SISTER... Hahaha...

Alright... The pictures will be uploaded soon I guess!! Hahaha.. How soon? I don't know... Cya...

2007-12-26T11:36:00.000+08:00

OMG!! I just realised that I didn't update my blog for like almost 2 weeks man... Hahaha.. Never mind... So here I am blogging again... *CLAPS* hahahaha... OK... I have 3 things to blog about... Firstly, is about my class outing on the last day of school before the holidays start... Secondly, the girlfriends' chalet and lastly my trip to Malacca-KL... hehehe... Ok so first... the class outing...

We had Enterprise Skills on friday.. As usual, we had to do all the worksheet questions... One of the questions happened to talk about doughnuts... You know most of us like doughnuts... *yum yum*... Ok ok... So after we've gone through all the team's presentation on the worksheet, one of my team mate said to me, "eh ask faci to blanja us doughnuts ar..." then I just told faci across the room... "Faci... Keith ask you to blanja us doughnuts..." Actually, we were just playing with the Faci... And our generous and cute faci gave Keith 20 bucks to go and buy doughnuts for the class... We were like 'are-you-serious?' kind of reaction... So during the 2nd break out, the whole class went to causeway point to buy doughnuts together... We took about 24 pieces... So we get to eat 2 doughnuts each.... The OREO doughnut is heaven... It tastes damn good la... But someone just don't like the OREO lol... Hahaha... We took quite a number of pictures... Here goes...

THE TRIP TO CAUSEWAY POINT...

MUNCHY DOUGHNUT!!! One is NOT enough!! hehehe...

Ooooo... OREO Doughnut..

Keith is obsessed with the doughnuts...

Peace... Sorry Amy... I'm in the picture... Hahaha...

Posing right in front of the lift... hahaha...

The making of 'The Climbing'... Hahaha...

Everyone is stabilizing themselves...

VOILA!! It's a success... Hahaha...

On our way back to school...

This pictures were taken on our way to Causeway Point...
Amy and Su wanted to take picture in that two tiny rectangle hole...
They look so small in it la.. Hahaha... Esp Amy...

Gotcha San San... Seating alone with Keith ar...
Keith got so happy being caught red-handed... Hahahaha...

Is Amy posing for the camera?

The guys who can't wait... They left the girls behind...

The 10 lost mates... They finally found each other at
the Causeway and decided to take pictures together...
Hahahahahah...

2007-12-10T15:06:00.000+08:00

In class now... Having the 2nd presentation... Nothing to do... My eyes are not paying attention to the slides but I THINK my ears are... Hahaha... Ouh anyways while we were having second breakout, Samm, Vanessa, San San and me were doing the paper balls that we learnt last Friday... Just to pass time.. In other words, we are TOO LAZY to do the powerpoint... Hahahaha... Then I think San San did one specially caters to MC... Hahaha..

So while we were presenting, San San asked MC to hold the paper ball she made for him... Then he hold it and when San San asked him to look at the picture, he throw the ball at someone else and his face were so pale for once... Hahaha... BECAUSE.... That paper ball has lizard on it... Hahahaha... His weakness... LIZARDS!!! Wuahahaha... He scolded Chi-bai... Lol... Seriously when I see his face, I don't know whether I should laugh or sympathize him... But either way is still funny... OK OK... Don't talk much later I will get it... Hahaha... For now... Cheerios...

2007-12-10T10:45:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! HOLIDAYS ARE COMING... FOR 3 WEEKS!!! WOOHOO!!! CHALET, KL-GENTING, CLASS OUTING (I hope)... Hahaha... Can't wait... Ouh and more of working hours I suppose...

Anyways girls... I think that most of us are sleeping over at the chalet for 2 nights... It's great to know most of you girls can make it... Ok so I just want to confirm that these names that I am about to list down are the ones staying over :

1) Sujitha

2) Afifah

3) Khalidah

4) Denise

5) Yee Ling

6) Joy

7) Ivy

8) Zarinna

9) Dama

One more thing people... The first night caters to ONLY THE GIRLS... Which is to say only US & US... No outsiders PLEASE... I don't care if they are your partner or not... Or whether he or she don't know how to get there... Coz the thing is none of us knows how to get there... You can bring them on the 2nd day... It doesn't matter what time they want to come coz I know most of you just can't get away from your another HALF!!! BUT PLEASE KEEP THE FIRST NIGHT WITHIN US GIRLS!!! Coz we can't get to spend the time with the 'f'ull strength' (omg... sounds like as if we are in the army)... So I really really appreciate if you girls can co-operate on this... I don't want people to be left-out... OK girls?!

I am very excited and can't wait for the chalet... I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO 17... woohoo... I am very sure everyone is looking forward too yeah... Ok if I have anything to update... I will do so in the blog... Alrighty cheers peeps... :-)

2007-12-04T14:58:00.000+08:00

A REMINDER TO FRUITIES....

We are having a 3 days 2 nights chalet at Changi Safra...

17/12 - 19/12

Suji's dad has booked for us...

So there is nothing to worry about...

There are more important things to worry about now...

1) The number of people who are staying overnight

2) Who you girls are bringing along for the 2nd day... (e.g. partners?cats?dogs?)

Hahaha...

3) Theme...

Ouh Suji has a very good idea for the 2nd day...

Either we make it during the BBQ or in the day...

Her theme is ..... WIG HAIR DAY!!!! YAY!!!

What we mean by wig hair day?

We bring wig on that day and doll ourselves up for the fun and laughter...

However, I just realise that there's a problem here...

"Do we have to buy the wig?"

A good question... I'm not really sure...

I need to know the response from you girls...

If the response is overwhelming...

Then we have to think of a solution in order not to fork out a single cent...

Girls... If you have anything interesting on your mind...

DO LET ME KNOW k?

Ouh don't forget to let me know if you girls are staying for the 3 days or only a day...

Waiting for your reply peeps...

;-)

2007-11-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

Had to go for my course talk the day before yesterday... I'm in DIEM - Diploma in Integrated Events Management... I kind of find my course cool because of the core modules that I'll be taking next year... As most of the RP students know that for year 2 and 3, wednesday is a free day... Meaning the 2nd year and 3rd year students do not have to attend lessons on Wednesdays... However, my Programme Chair (PC) advised us to take up this G252 module... Initially we only had 4 core modules to attend to but we were encouraged to take up that G252 module... Even if we don't want to take now, we still have to take it on year 3... Year 3 is hectic... Where you have to finish all your assignment and stuffs, it is called FYP... Don't ask me what it is...

Ouh and one of my classmate, MC, he wants to join DIEM because of his interest in business.. He is currently in SEG, School of Engineering and I told him about the briefing and module selection which was held 2 days ago and asked him if he wanted to follow me to go for the talk and try to talk to my PC about transfering him to my course... Fortunately, he went with me, at least I have someone to accompany me... Well, that's not the point... The most important is for him to talk to my PC and if he is able to transfer to my course...

Guess what?! MC looks like an ah beng who is ready to fight against 15 people... But on that day, when he was suppose to talk to my PC, he was shivering and his legs were trembling... His palms were sweaty... I have never seen that side of him before... Like I said, he look like an ah beng who is ready to fight against 15 people and yet he was so scared to talk to my PC... I still can't stop laughing at you when I recalled what happen while waiting for your turn to talk to my PC... Even if you were not about to cry, your eyes were watery... That show how "BRAVE" you are man... It's a good thing that you asked at least you know the possibilities... Even though your chances are very slim... I still have the feeling that you might get transfer over to DIEM.. LETS HOPE miracles will happen... Shall wait for both my and your PC to get together to discuss about this issue...

I kind of find that my PC is a nice guy... Really nice... He talked to MC about it... He said it's not encouraging at the moment now because they have stopped students from transfering to another course... I really hope that MC is able to get transfer out from SEG, because SEG is not his forte... Well boy, I'm giving you all the blessings and luck because I know you need it badly... Lets hope that your PC will say YES and everything will run smoothly...

The JVS choir had their public performance yesterday at the Young Musician Society Auditorium... I must say that you guys performed well even though there were certain songs I think need a lot of improvement... Overall, I think you did a pretty good job... Ouh where's the smile people? Have you forgotten to smile? Your expression? You don't seem to enjoy yourself for the first few songs that you sung... I know all of you were worn out because you were not given a rest to gain back your energy and went straight into the programme... I think being in performing arts is to be able to entertain your audience and make your audience wanting more from your performance... I believe in each and everyone of you that you can improve on this aspect and learn from it... All in all, 2 thumbs up for the last few songs... I find it very nice and touchy much... To all the committee members, all the best in handling the choir.. It's on you now... It's not easy I dare say... If you work well together as a team, you will definitely manage to pull through even if there's obstacles that will block your way through...

All right talked too much already... Turning in now.. Nitez peepz... Cheers...

2007-11-25T21:20:00.000+08:00

WARNING!!! ESPECIALLY TO THE PEOPLE WHO IS AROUND ME... DON'T MESS WITH SOMEONE WHO IS PMS-ING RIGHT NOW!!! I MEAN IT!!! You can talk to me just don't irritate the shit out of me... You can disturb me but there's a limit to it... If I don't like you and I don't like the way it is... You better be on your guards people... Yesterday was working and my face was like "I'm-gonna-kill-you-bitch"...

Like I said... DON'T MESS WITH SOMEONE WHO IS PMS-ING!!! Yesterday, I had to do Sushi... When I wanted to take something from the buffet counter, I wasn't smiling and my colleague asked me if I wanted to kill people... Haha... When I think back, it's kind of funny though..

Also, the same person always get it from me... He asked me in a jokingly manner and I keep shooting him with harsh words... Then he asked me if I was feeling unwell.. From there onwards I realize that I was being bad to him... Hehe... Girl who is pms-ing is always like this... To Wayan... So sorry to be so harsh to you yesterday...

Ouh to my grandparents... Happy 40th Anniversary to you grandma and grandpa... I'm sorry that I couldn't get half day to attend your celebration... Sad case...
Stupid Maam Sharon... I can get a replacement with a trainee and she said she don't want trainee... She wants a senior... Like how the fuck am I suppose to get a senior to replace me? No difference anyway... The trainee still can do work... It's not like as if she can't... FUCK YOU LA BITCH!!! Thanks to you I miss my grandparents' 40th Anniversary celebration... Never mind I will remember you for this... You are just a FUCKING IRRITATING BITCH!!!

2007-11-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

I just realise that the song Soul Mate is damn nice la... I know it was a bit slow of me to realise it now... Haha... I can really feel the music... The lyric is perfect for me and those who have longed for someone to hold... Ok so here's the lyric enjoy:

SOUL MATE

Incompatible, it don't matter though

Coz someone's bound to here my cry

Speak out if you do

You're not easy to find

Is it possible, Mr lovable

Is already in my life?

Right in front of me

Or maybe you're in disguise

Chorus:

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me, why I'm on my own

If there's a soul mate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end

How do I find a perfect fit?

There's enough for everyone

But I'm still waiting in line

Chorus:

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me, why I'm on my own

If there's a soul mate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory

They're all good but not the permanent one

Chorus:

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me, why I'm on my own

If there's a soul mate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold

Who knows how to love you without being told

Somebody tell me, why I'm on my own

If there's a soul mate for everyone

2007-11-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

Back to school last Monday... Excited? Boring? If you were to ask me... I will say both... Excited to get back to class and boring because will be doing the same thing again and again... The same old presentation... That's RP anyway... Ouh have I told you that Ma'am Sharon, my Restaurant Manager is transferring soon... I heard she will be transferred over to Taka on the 3rd December... I've been wanting her to get transfer over to somewhere but then now, after I heard that she will get transferred, I don't feel excited at all... Compare to Sir Gopi now, I prefer Ma'am t0 him... Haiz... Sir Gopi is a pain in my ass now man seriously... Don't wish to talk about him... Not in the mood to do so...

Missed UT on Thursday because my back was aching and decided not to go to school... I was dressed already and wanted to leave for school and the pain suddenly struck me... Haiz... Missed my Science UT... I'm a happy girl now... CREATIVE is having a X'mas sale... From 16-31 December... It's at Plaza Singapura, Marina Square and International Business Park... I'm going over once I've gotten my pay... I've been wanting to get one MP3 since my brother is using my Zen NANO... Maybe I'm getting a Zen V Plus or Zen... But Zen is expensive la... It's a size of a credit card... Cool huh... Shall see how it goes on Friday the 30th... Going over to either Plaza Sing or Marina Square with my darling Ida and Suji... Hehe... Alrighty peeps till another entry... Byez...

2007-11-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

First of all before I update my entry I just want to wish SUJI and her family.. HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!! Thanx for inviting us girls over to your place and ouh.. Tell your mom I LOVE her sambal prawns... It makes me want more... Haha...

Anyway went over to Suji's house to celebrate deepavali with her and her family.. All of us went except Ivy, Dama, E. Yi Wen and Sis Linda.... Nevertheless, we still had fun and stuffs ourselves with the yummylicious food.... Haha.. OUH... Suji... I just fell in love with one of your brother's friends.. He is damn cute and adorable... Haha... NOT THE GAY one... He is DAMN CUTE AND HOT of course... It's one of them... Haha... I told Ida about it and she laughed at me lol... She say the guy is short... Yeah he is short... But you know... He is cute and adorable... Haha... He is the one who wore the checkered-T with jeans... *HEARTS MELTING* Haha... EH DON'T TELL YOUR BRO AR... haha...

One more thing... You look gorgeous my darling... My sis say you look like princess... Haha... Anyways I didn't manage to try the chocolate fondue lol... Haiz... Never mind... Maybe next time perhaps... HAHA... Oklah... Once again... HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO YOU GIRL...
LOve you MUACKZ...

2007-11-05T00:30:00.000+08:00

Just 2 simple words for my dearest friend... BE STRONG... That's all I can say right now... I know it's hard for you... It's easy said than done... When you told me about that, I can actually feel what you are going through girl... I feel your pain too... You know that we are always here for you... Just let it out... Don't hide... The more you hide the worst it become... I'm glad that you poured all your troubles with us... I wish I could take all the bad memories away from you... I want you to be happy like you used to be... The old you who usually wave at me when you saw me... You don't care about people looking at you... Haha... Hope that time will come... Well not that soon... Maybe after you have partially recoverd from this break-down... I just want to tell you that I love you.. I have always treated you as one of my sister... Really glad to have you as my friend... That's what friends are for girl... To stand by each other no matter what... Don't take it as a burden to us but take it as an advise that's been given to you... I have never felt that you are a burden to me... Well I think nobody felt that way either... When you apologised to us saying that you have troubled us... I felt a little disturb... Friends don't know the word "burden or sorry-to-trouble-you" word... Only strangers do that.... Friends know each other for long... They go through ups and downs together with different characteristics and personalities... It's just a matter of sincerity... I think I talk too much already... Haha... Anyways... BE STRONG!! Somethings happen for a reason... BELIEVE IN KARMA DEEPLY yeah... haha... Nitez then...
Muackz...

I'm Tired of Loving This Way by Collin Raye & Bobbie Eakes

2007-11-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

I'm Tired of Loving This Way

I'm tired of watching me hurt you

I'm tired of being the teardrops on your face

I'm tired of loving this way

I know your every weakness

I can find one in everything you say

I'm tired of loving this way

I'm tired of loving this way.

I'm not what you really need

I'm not the one in your dreams

I can see it in your eyes

This ain't the way it should feel

I don't know how we got here

Love's no longer blind

If that's just how it is

Can we go on like this

Oh baby what do you say

I'm tired of loving this way

I'll set your heart free

And if you're mine you'll come flying back someday

I'm tired of loving this way

Well, I'm taking you with me

Like a room in my heart you'll have your place

I'm tired of loving this way

I'm not what you really need

I'm not the one in your dreamsI can see it in your eyes

This ain't the way it should feelI don't know how we got here

Love's no longer blind

If that's just how it is

Can we go on like this

Oh baby what do you say

I'm tired of loving this way

2007-11-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

Time sure flies huh... It's already the 7th week of Sem 2... Holiday starts tomorrow...
YAY!!! Haha... Only a week though.. It's ok...

Anyways it's been a long time since I talked about my classmates... They are
very loud... Haha... seriously loud... A bit contradicting to first few weeks of the
Sem 2.... They are damn quiet la during the first few weeks.. Haha..

Frankly speaking, I'm not really close to everybody... I mingle and disturb them
but not close... I'm only close to a few of them in class... Like MC, San San, Naqiah,
Izwan... Mostly I'm close to MC and San San... They are the closest ones in my class...
San San is a nice girl and everytime without fail, I will disturb her... Haha... Miss
working with her lol... We used to be in the same group for like 3 times out of the 5 days before we changed group...

Now I'm close to MC... I'm in his group for 4 times out of the 5 days... LOVES to disturb me...
He has a lot of problem with me which I don't know what... However, he is a nice guy... Damn nice... I'm comfortable working with him.... Kind of find him like Sasi... The guy in my previous class.... Same attitude... Haha... MC is the only guy in my class who likes to watch The Phantom Of The Opera... Thanks to him that I got the
movie... Haha.... Ouh... He is my bitching partner in class... Haha... shhhh.... Hehe...

Now, let's talk about Izwan... Erm... he is nice and I find him cute... Haha.. A very helpful guy... Guess what? He works at Causeway Seoul Garden... Haha... So in class we will usually talk about work... Hehe...

Naqiah? I'm sure most of you know who Naqiah is... She is from JVS... No need to elaborate on her... Coz I'm sure all of you know who she is la..

I STILL MISS MY PREVIOUS CLASS... W25P YOU'RE MISSED
BY ME... Oklah... Ouh I'm updating one of my favourite songs later... I'm going to publish the lyrics... I JUST LOVE THE SONG...

2007-11-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps... I'm back blogging again.. Well holidays are here again... YAY!!!

Having break for a week from school but not from work... Haha...

I have written my schedule down for 4 days... All 10-10... WOAH!! COOL!!

Haha... I think it's time for me to work more now because I've been working for

only 2 days per week and my pay is kind of pathetic... Must make full use of my

holidays to work so that I can go for my holidays at genting... haha... I just felt like

going there... Don't know why also... Haha... Anyways people keep tagging my tag board k? With that pens off.. byesz....